another post of love??

what is love??

i read 3 books bout love today. it states that love is an endless journey like learning new knowledge, it never ends. love is like studies?? you can never finish learning bout it. love is the greatest feeling and the greatest knowledge in life.

love is not showing off how much you can give someone, how much you can do for her, what you can do for her, it's some kind of strong feeling that somehow appear in your heart, you can't find any reason why are you loving someone. because it just happen like this. if you can find a reason why you love someone, that means you're not loving her. haha love and like is different. like is you admire someone's appearance or you're liking their attitude or personalities. a friend of mine duno how to differentiate love and like or jealous and admire.

ok, the 3 books dun really explain bout love but it's just bout the stories that the author been through. sharing their experiences and stuff. but 1 thing, love is not bout remembering how much you gave to the person but appreciate how much the person gave you. dun always think of what you've sacrificed for her but think bout what she had sacrificed for you. kinda saying myself, i noticed it today and i won't do it anymore. dun always put someone you love into some kind of complicated situation. it will never works and make things worse. when you really love someone, you won't bother to own her or control her life but you really care for her. seeing her suffer will make you feel better?? then i dun think that's love. ppl always say love is selfish. but dun over selfish until you sacrificed her feelings la, the war of yours shouldn't include her. sorry, i'm kinda out of topic d. really angry at myself la !

ok, it's really hard for me seeing you like this always. i've been through whatever you're facing. i really know how you felt. and it's really hard for you without anyone's support. there's a reason for my blog title. i dun simply put it just for being emo or ask for sympathise or whatever. i know it's very hard for us to go on like this, but i'm happy because i know you'll remember me. life's never easy. i've been thinking for almost whole day today, you're really in some kind of bad situation with no directions. just like what you said, in the middle of the ocean out of nowhere and no map no island no sun no moon. what also dun hav, no directions at all. and might sink anytime. today i seriously felt it, from what you said today, i'm willing to let you go just to giv you a better life. i dun wan to see you suffer anymore between all of us. i dun wan to care bout how much i've done for you, because you done more than enough. you sacrificed a lot for us and hurt yourself more than anything.

i really cannot stand anymore. you're hurting way too over. if we continue like this, you'll hurt even more. i duno should i let go or not. that's why i'll ask for your thoughts first. but not now la, you can give me answer after prom. since we're facing SPM this year, we should really focus in SPM. i can't really do anything for you. when you're in pain, i can't even make you smile just for a second or at least distract you from feeling the pain. you always think for the others, but you din notice how much you've hurted. i can imagine the pain you're feeling because i'm always around you. even though i know you just for 2 months. but i somehow felt that we've knew each other for long.

一段爱情不应该在乎曾经拥有，而是曾经爱过。至少我知道我曾经在你的心里出现过，这一切就够了。

love shouldn't care bout owning each other before, but at least you know you love her before. at least i know i appeared in your heart and in your life. everything is more than enough.

i dun wan to see you falling in the wrong person.