college

haha, i started my college life like last week?? and now i'm blogging in the citc of my college... ^^

well... i'm lucky to like know almost all my tutorial ppl already... basically more than 50% of them already knew each other before coming in to this tutorial class... hehe.... cause more than 50 % of them are from pahang and i guess they're from the same secondary school... hehe... it makes my life easier to get to know more ppl because most of them already knew each other... ^^

i'm actually doing my HOMEWORK now cause i forgot bout it for like whole week?? ==" din expect to have homework for now... should remind myeslf to do homework next time already... if not everytime rush in college isn't something good.. haha! it's no longer secondary where you can postpone your due dates and deadlines.. =( used to be lazy and really lazy... guess i really need to start to be hardworking and do all my homeworks.. ^^

"friends"

i guess i've misunderstood the word above... i guess ever since the first moment this word was introduced into my life, i got it wrongly, until today, i finally realise what's a friend, and how to be a friend... i was making mistakes all the time =(

A friend is suppose to accept who you are instead wanting you to be who they want. maybe i was a bad friend after all, i've never make decisions... i've never know how to make decisions until today... until someone told me that i shouldn't be this way anymore... until someone told me that i should really start thinking for my own future instead of satisfying everyone around me... i always say i'm borned to help... but now only i realise i wasn't helping, i'm doing something wrong all this while...

A friend is suppose to help the other friend when he needed some help. BUT not always helping other friends to solve their problems... everyone has to learn how to handle what they're facing... and i really made a wrong decisioni today =( maybe it's just the old me, i need to renew myself really soon =) no man is an island, but every man should learn how to be independent instead of being dependent. there are times that you'll be facing troubles alone, with no supports, with no opinions, with no advices, that's the time you have to think and decide totally base on your own.

A friend is suppose to share stuff with another instead of keep saying bout one's problems. it's true there are listeners, they prefer listening more than expressing. but, they're just prefering... i'm sure they need someone else for them to express also right? they just need the right person with the right moment... not everyone like to express, at times like this, as a friend, we must strengthen our observation, observe better and be the man, do the right thing. >.<

i really dunno what are friends suddenly, blank in the mind.... haiz...

so many things going around...

damm! really hate this kinda feeling !!

something wrong?

i always felt blessed when i'm driving, that's why i'm really glad

but recently, i somehow felt dangerous? i nearly killed a cat, i nearly killed a frog.

dunno ler... haha

recently do what also like no mood, no energy... play game also like no soul.... like a living corpse

maybe just too much to think of XD