addidas warehouse sales

Addidas warehouse sales... 29th 30th 31st at Atria 2nd floor, damansara jaya

its business hour is 10am~8pm...but today morning around 8am got ppl camping outside the mall already... and guess what... the field got like 20% empty after 10 minutes or so.... everything is grabbing the shoes, shirt and everything like crazy... they like dun even care for their money or what so ever... i saw ppl buy like rm2000, and the maximum price of an item is only rm120... can you imagine what he bought?? and he bought like dunno how many caps and socks which cost only rm5 per item... cool huh?? sorry to say, if you're going later or this weekend, nothing much left there?? but you can still pay a visit there lar, maybe your taste is different with other ppl then you can get an item of two for yourself lor... haha...

most godly dream i ever had...

i dreamt bout 7 deadly sins....

- Extravagance
- Gluttony
- Envy
- Greed
- Acedia
- Wrath
- Pride

7 of these, standing right in front of me... it somehow shows that i'm having 7 of them within me... and, i'm not fighting them... they're fighting by my side with something else... scary...

count down ~ haha

101 days after today, you'll see me back to SM !!! semenanjung malaysia ~

20 days til ns camp at sabah
81 days at there =)

i will miss whoever i possibly remember during the camp !! LOLZ

jokingz, you guys should know my memory power... =P

hope i can really enjoy the camp without
- lovesick
- homesick
- gamesick
- friendsick
- phonesick and
- facebooksick

haha... hopefully no one will forget who i am after camp ler =P

lyrics again =P translated from japanese

part I
and stain this red sky.
just walk through the coming times with your own body.

people that walk by you and things that get lost in the mess are all memories that will disappear.
violently shaking strength...
transiently wavering weakness...
after all, they'll come to the same end.

such a day melts the red mist,
as the sun rises, the world is stained in crimson.
draw a line as the wind blows you,
tips of hair flowing like water spear the enemy.
forsaken loves and dreams that well up
all i have to do at this moment is to complete the mission with these hands.

and stain this red sky.
just walk through the coming times with your own body.

people that walk by you and things that get lost in the mess are all memories that will disappear.
violently shaking strength...
transiently wavering weakness...
after all, they'll come to the same end.

such a day melts the red mist,
as the sun rises, start coming now,
why do i feel loss and hesitation in my pounding heart?
hurry and break this pain hurtfully dancing in my heart.

the scorched clouds that stain the sky are burnt by the secret wish kept within.
tears fill my hesitant eyes, but i change them into tomorrow's strength.
i've given up everything and have fallen to the ground, where i slay all evil with one sword.
i'll always let the light inside my heart shine,
until i complete the mission with my own body.

partII
choose the moment we share with a throbbing heart...
move forward to the end of time.
i said the phrase "see you tomorrow" ever so quietly.
like the sun shining down on and fighting against everything.
it'd be the agonizing smile filled with existence
if there is one thing to be protected, it'd be your future.

in an instant, choosing this world where it shakes and roars,
i fly through the land of fate...
secretly hiding the flame that lit inside my heart
sharing now and tomorrow with you.

part III
close your eyes, your beating heart is struggling in the fog.
searching aimlessly for where it belongs, all through the day.
there aren't any worlds without pain.
i just want touch it, just want to safeguard it.
i look into the red-stained sunset.

i discovered a new side of me in this meeting.
so, let's start a new day.

am i convincing?? haha

I love you not because of who you are, but because of who I am when I am with you.

No man or woman is worth your tears, & the one who is, won't make you cry.

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand & touches your heart.

The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can' t have them

Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

Don't waste your time on someone, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting & just be more careful about who you trust next time around..

Make yourself a better person & know who you are before you try & know someone else & expect them to know you.

Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

translated lyrics from a mandarin-korean song

release my most mysterious waiting,
stars are dropping, and the wind is blowing,
finally i held you in my heart once again,
our hearts are shaking,
but trust my unchangable truthful heart,
thousand years of waiting, you had my promise,
no matter how many winter we've been through, i will hold your hands.

every night, my heart is hurting through and through
but my thoughts of you has no ending,
i'm already used to lonely life,
but i still face it with the smile you taught,
trust me, what we can do is waiting,
no matter how hard life is, i'll never avoid again
only your gentleness will warm my coldest end.

let love become the only flower in our hearts,
love will go through universe,
never sigh and never give up on this beautiful dream.

love is the only immortal beautiful mystery in my heart.

20th May

another day started like how other days were passed...

3rd attempt walking from blitzone to kelana lrt... this time used 38 minutes... i wonder why... everytime i walk sure got pass by her place... it isn't a passing by road or a shorter road to take... maybe i'm missing her too much and just wanted to check out? haiz... i still pass by even though i know she's not home... now like every girl i see also look like her, i guess i'm seriously missing her too much... just nice 70 days i din see her already... i must last it !! i mean not to last the "din see days" but to last my feelings... til no end cause it was an endless love... lolz...

watched " i love you, man " today at midvalley... that movie ok ok lar.... maybe parts of it i dun understand and i din laugh at certain parts.... ok, end....

after that go ou, supposingly to go out at 8 something but end up 10 something... haha... between that 8~10, i see ppl play pool and bowling at that ou place... seeing those couples play pool... so funny... some girls can't even hit the ball properly.... some guys, they're not really good, but wanted to show to their gf... hehe !! i'm not good either, that's why i'm still seeing how ppl play and improve myself... sometimes i do consult for advices or techniques though... haha.... dunno i got that kind of luck to play with my future gf or not... as pool is 1 of my favourite game... and most probably i'm getting a pool table at home gua... when i'm rich enough lar... cause it's just an entertainment, it's not a need in the list... =) other things come first =)

after that 10 something, me, chun ming, boon, becca, san seng end up in ming tien eating desserts or rather small dishes to have a lil talk and some yum cha session... haha... 1 thing, i think i'm insane... just now when san seng speeding.... becca was sitting beside me... i shouted : gosh~ manda you dun hav seatbelt !! i was like paused.... oops.... that's becca not manda... omg... everyone was like... ehem... maybe i'm missing her too much lor, that's what i said in the beginning... lolz... now i wish the time can pass faster, so i could go ns and relax my mind *i hope so* cause... i'm seriously thinking too much staying at home like this.... gosh... i even thought of the perfect present which combined sincerity, love, money, creativity, and shop... dunno lar, it'll be a surprise anyway... no one gonna knows what is it !! dun try to "seduce" me saying it out... HAHA

what you know bout L I E ??

i meant the cheating kind of lie.... not lie on the floor or bed or table or whatever

definition :
- a false statement deliberately presented as being true; a falsehood
- something meant to deceive or give a wrong impression
- to present false information with the intention of deceiving
- to convey a false image or impression
- to cause to be in a specific condition or affect in a specific way by telling falsehoods

yup, lie is something as stated above... sometimes we think it's good to lie because we dun wan someone to be hurt? but in the end, they will hurt even more... so what can we do?? honest all the time?? that's not the way also... because no matter how honest are you, your words will be doubted... trust me... i've faced that... eventhough you're saying the truth, but there's no one believe in you... how sad was that huh?? but i've learnt... was given a lesson bout lie...

you know... what i used to be?? who i used to be?? ppl who know my past... you should know how i used to be... my life was dark~ i used to lie every single day... almost bout every single happening... but as the time passes... i've learnt to be honest... no matter how hard was it... i'm just gonna be honest... although it might hurt somebody... but in the end, i'm just gonna make sure i cared for them... eventhough it looks like i've hurt them by saying the truth... but i really cared for them... i dun wan them to feel like i can't be truthful to them... honesty might make you feel stupid, but in the end, you'll feel glad that you never lied...

every lie has a flaw... it will be revealed someday... the more you lie, the harder your determination... because when you lie, you forgot bout some of the details... example, 20th april 2009, you went out with a girl name laura, but you told your girl friend it was a guy name john or something... then like 1 day, she ask you again... you said it's lara or something... no matter how hard you try to remember every single lie of yours... you'll fail yourself someday.... you can't remember what/who/how was that day unless you really said the truth... our mentality is something beyond universe... you won't know how powerful it is because it can't even prove by scientist...

to me, i'm trying my hardest to reduce my lies... i know how stupid i was... i'm trying to change it... somehow... i've changed a lot... comparing myself now with the ME 4 or 5 years ago... maybe everything was fated... i was meant to learn things this way... i'm strongly believing that everything happens for a reason...

how ??

How you see yourself:

You don't really care about school or grades. Rules apply to you, but you don't seem to take them seriously. You are very laid-back and outgoing, so you are easy to like. You can be funny when you want to be, but being serious about things can occasionally be an issue.

How others see you:

Others see you as the slacker. Whether they know it for a fact or not, they may think of you as the "bad kid" who hangs with the "bad crowd." They generally like you, however, because they wish they could have a stress-free life like you.

Who you are:

You have the potential to be great. You are very intelligent, but you don't try because you don't see the point or because you have better things to do. You find it difficult to take studying seriously or to work for long periods of time. You don't feel that others have much faith in your abilities, so you laze around because you don't have faith in yourself. You will, however, be a stress-free person, and that will make you happier than most.

steady?

wah, steady ah !! some say ler some say lar, but uncle phua say

Steady people desire to keep their environment from changing. They have a consistent work performance. They accommodate others. They get along well with others because they are flexible in their attitude. They may not say anything if they disagree just to keep peace, however they seem to find a way to get what they want. They are moderate and controlled. They are modest. They like to help others, make good counselors and are great listeners. They can speak on an intellectual level and prefer quiet discussions with one or two people. They build close relationships with a small group of friends. They like to maintain familiar and predictable patterns. They are consistent in accomplishing work. If they receive appreciation, they maintain a high level of performance. They may need help when starting a new project. They like to feel comfortable with anything new before actually starting it. They enjoy something in writing so they can refer to it. They ask, they don't tell. They want answers to their "HOW" and "WHEN" questions.

another day

16-5-09 weather : rainy

early in the morning, i went dj to collect my P license, yay !! ok.... nothing much.... after that collected my thumbdrive from may jin... i think something is missing, haha... but i think she've did enough lor... just that... i dunno, some i saw but it's not in here.... haha... nvm nvm... after that i walk to kj from dj blitz again !! last time i walk 48 minutes, now 35 minutes !! maybe i was happy cause of the thumbdrive and license in my pocket ! haha

took lrt to kl central, oops... wrong one... i went there walked around... gosh... where the heck am i !! ahah... then take once again to klcc... ohh~ this is the right place... haha... i walked from suria klcc to pav, pav to sungei wang, wanted to go times square but my leg really tired d, so... sungei wang back to pav, pav to suria klcc...

pav > sungei wang = meet shu xian
sungei wang > pav = meet my cousin
inside pav 2nd time = meet shu xian again but this time she din see me cause i avoided... dunno what to say mar... haha
pav > suria klcc = meet king yang when i going to buy ticket home ~

after that joined king yang to the IBE, international beauty expo... to find cindy and sunny... but it was too boring, me and king yang went BK to drink.... drink drink talk talk drink drink... 90 minutes passed... finally cindy and sunny came to meet us... then drink drink talk talk eat eat drink drink talk talk... another 90 minutes passed... planned to go movie but end up cancel... omg!! inside lrt, we're crazy mann~ shouting like no one else business.... from mid lrt ran to the other end of the lrt... then act insanely and took some pictures.... i never felt this crazy before.. LOL ~

after that, went ming tien find jen liz and pei chien... apple juice again !! haha.... and ate some fried mushrooms... then go senti/centi/sandy/sendi park play basketball... haha... we met a 65 years old's uncle.... if we weren't there, he would've played alone... hehe... i think he miss the times where he's able to play with his children, he keep passing the ball to us... his children all left him alone here... 2 migrated to australia and bought house there also.... another one staying at singapore... all also very successful... i was wondering is he happy... cause he was left here... after playing ball, went syed abu aka jelutong yum cha... then back to the park again to meet up lee ping, cheau wei, cheow yuen and poh yee... play play talk talk there for quite some time until kian boon come... gosh, nearly lose my first kiss there... all play til so crazy.. haha...

that's bout the day bah.... nothing else... just that i spent almost 20 hours after i'm awake...
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10 bucks for 2 hours of thoughts??

i'm really so damm useless de lor.... haiz...
i really wish i can know what is she feeling, thinking and doing...
i really wish i can think bout what happen trying to put myself in her shoes, not to think bout it in my own ways...

2 hours.... i thought it through and through...
i've got positive answers and negative answers....
i guess you also know how hard is it when someone dun reply your message but replied someone else's message in front of you right? it's kinda heart breaking, eventhough it's just some educational messages, but really affect mental thinking for a while de lo... i believe every man will react the same... but... i thought it the other way lar... i read back what i sent also lar... maybe it's my fault lor... and i was actually wishing for some simple only !! just a message to let me know... everything's fine... nvm lar, i can't force right?? am i that heavenly ?? how much pain i could actually take in?? haiz....

i always feel i'm not good enough for her... dunno lar... haiz.... sometimes i even think that i've gave her pressure in some ways... i dunno my way of concern, my way of caring... is it something pressuring... i really dunno what i can do, i really wish there's something i can do.... after worrying the whole night... finally i've got an answer... i even held my phone in my hand when i fell asleep last night.... the last message i received was 126am, the last i sent was 148am... and the last time i saw before falling asleep was 314am... i held my phone every single second just in case that she would reply me anytime... until i'm really tired and i fell asleep with the phone on my hand...

everyday, i'm just thinking and thinking and thinking..... have i ever made any moves? any actions?? i'm just always saying it with my mouth.... you know.... sometimes i really feel that i'm nothing at all... i thought of suiciding once... not because of her lar, but i noticed like no one realised that i'm actually exist or something... and somehow, i found my way to live on... the only reason i'm living it's because i wanna give a chance for someone to love me, and give a chance to myself to truely love someone... the word loyalty, it's not just a word... it can be considered as a big commitment... i always thought through also... why human have to do something to continue surviving?? why am i human?? somehow, i found the answer... when someone work hard to earn money, when someone working hard on someone else... WE, ALL HUMAN are surviving for our LOVE ONES... that's what i'm thinking now, eventhough i dun think my age is suitable for this kind of thinking... but... i guess i've made a right choice... we can't just give up our lives... because we have our love one to protect, our love one to share, our love one to comfort...

ya, maybe you think i'm emo or what... but you can't know what is running through my mind... i can be as simple as a strawman, but i can be as complicated as a high-tech machine with thousands over functions... within that 2 hours... i've thought a lot.... and i have someone beside me to share lots of my thoughts too.... she shared some of hers with me too... hehe... but i... i just dunno lar... been having that kind of idk idc idm way of living... that's why now like so cacat'ed (fyi : idk idc idm means i don't know, i don't care, i don't mind) i really hope i can make up my mind and do something which i feel it's a right thing to start with.... my education? my career? or relationships....

i just wish that, i can understand everyone around me really well, what are they thinking, what they really want.... i hope that my existence can make everyone around me feels that i cared for them... but i'm just too busy to satisfy everyone... that's why, i wished for the least, i could understand what is she thinking, feeling, and what i can do for her, care for her...

REMEMBER : do not give up our life, give yourself a chance to love other ppl, and give other ppl a chance to love you... survive for those who willing to love us, survive for those who you willing to love, never ever give up... that's what every human living for.... A CHANCE

was i blinded for a moment??

if i'm going to college, i would've to consider bout my transport and staying also.... and and... but but... i really dunno what to decide now lar !! dammit ! can anyone help me??

form 6?
college?

how nice if there's a free car in front of me right now....
how nice if that free car has a year petrol free....
everything would've solve....

gosh... !!

A night to remember, another night of thoughts

a small gathering of us was held on 8th may, 8pm~11pm at kayu... =) had our chats and dinner there... it's fun sometimes.... when you get to put all your studies away, and chat happily with your friends...

it's a night of thoughts... i'm thinking bout form 6s, ns, college, courses, transport, staying, results, or rather future... it's not a simple choice to make... unless you have your further path already, which no matter how's your result, it won't affects your life... if everything is so easy, i wouldn't have to think so much... you think it's something like

- go form 6 lah.... since you duno what to take
- stay outside only lar... if everyday transport ma fan
- drive only lar... not like you dunno

the main thing is.... if stay outside, the cost of living and burden will be increased... if drive, currently i have no extra car, even if i have, need to consider the petrol, tol, road tax, and my safety.... if everything was perfectly planned, i wouldn't have to think at all... although it's not as complicated as i say, but it's not as simple as what you think... after a deep thought... hmm... i somehow... decided to choose the 2nd option... which is ns first then college or college then ns... form 6 no longer available in the options... know why?? because i've thought it through... lolz...

the reason i'll take form 6 at the beginning was, i'm able to see her everyday? i can go for ns while waiting for stpm? yup, everything was that simple in my simplified mind... after listen to various advices... studying isn't something that really like having fun with friends... so, dun like, oh you go there?? then i go there... oh you wanna take this?? then i take this also lar... hmm... we'll need to make a big decision in our life which might affect our whole life... yes, if i go form 6 i can see her everyday.... but then so?? it doesn't give her any hapiness seeing me everyday, or like... if i'm with her in the same school, her result will improve... i dun hav affections at all !! but, i think it's ok not to be with her in the same school, as long as i know i love her... and that love wouldn't change no matter what... unless 1 of us "gone"... then i think that's the end of my love life... although it's full of friendship love *i suppose* haha, but... a friend wouldn't accompany you til your whole life... it might be like 70% occupied only... where your partner will be living with you... seeing each other everyday, thinking for each other's rights, cared for each other, and stuff...

so, i chose not to take form 6, but it doesn't mean i gave up on her already... i just can't see the point why some ppl happy when i say i might wan to give up on her... somehow they got tested huh? haha.... and i remembered, she asks me to be an accountant, which is already in my list quite at the beginning, but after she said it... i guess i'll have to confirmed it... if you can do something that the person you loved asked you to... it's really satisfying... =) but the most memorable moment, is when you can cook and eat together with your loved one... it happened once in my life... but it never lasted more than 2 hours... but within that an hour and plus, i'm satisfied... to be able to cook together, preparing the ingredients, we have laughters and tears in between cause of the onion... that moment... where i can really smile from deep inside my heart... although there's so many sad moments like genting dec 2008, prom night 13th dec 2008, i dunno lar... sometimes it really hurts me through and through... which make me tears... there's a saying...

an unarmed fighter needed to be 3x stronger than a fighter with weapon
a happy moment have to be 10x better than the sad moments

as long as i treat the moonlight festival night as my superbly happy day of all... any sadness can't "tackle" me.... lolz... those pains she brought, can be replace by that 2 hours of joy of mine at that night... a friend told me, when a man tears, it means he really care.... and... that was my first time crying for a girl... in front of her... the time was 2:28am, 14th december 2008, venue i dun feel like telling... cause no one noticed i cried... they just saw those shining tears flowing in my eyes, they dunno it actually dropped out from my eyes.... 2:28,14/12/2008, the time i cried badly for the girl i loved... i shouldn't remember it right? haiz... that night, i "swallowed" a big cup of apple juice... but yet, no one knows i like apple juice?? haiz...

i heard lcci is quite good and cheap at ktar from my bro, and next day, i heard a friend of mine, su mei is taking lcci at ktar... so i guess it's ok?? but maybe i need to take foundations first?? i dun really know bout the degrees, diploma, certs, procedures, what course is what, what course is how and etc, hmm... i guess i'll have to ask around more... haha...

it's really a deep thought night... i'm even ready for the presents... nvm lar... haha... and today is the 300th day of me and her knowing each other.... such memorable day, i'm only abled to spend with my friends who dunno bout the 300th day.... haha.... but nvm lar, main person wasn't there also... so nvm lor... haha.... gosh.... i'm really self-comforting... nvm... i guess i shall stop, or else no ppl read d.... so damm long post.. hah

it's in my playlist =P

the song i hear the most currently daily

Montues day =)

Monday~

hmm, had my last 2 hours of driving lesson and went the mines today, the one with the "river" in the middle... haha, watched wolverine x-men origin there... what a sad ending... but i somehow felt like i'm someone like wolverine?? a person with an undying body... but me is my heart... no matter what or how... i'll end up loving the same one... =P nvm, that's not the main, the main thing is, logan is a sad lonely wolf wei... he end up forgetting the woman he loved, and forgetting who himself is... if 1 day i really forget bout her... i ain't myself lo.... just like wolverine, the only thing he's living for has gone.... i feel like the " koo koo ah choo ", supposingly kwekuetsu or something like that, i forgot the spelling... HAHA
a lonely wolf that can only see his beloved woman from far distance and never able to touch or hold her again... haha

Tuesday ~

530am, woke up, prepared myself a breakfast ( actually was 2 half boiled eggs and a cup of milo only ), then try my best to arrive dj at 630am... i'm having my driving exam today... so ya, forced to wake up early lo... luckily we arrived there early, had some time for extra practises... hehe... and ya.... it's my lucky day.... my bukit... whoa ~ can say it's totally lucky to pass it... when i let to the handbrake, my car ain't moving either forward or backward... my clutch not enough to go front, my "oil" enough to support from not going back... HAHA then i remember my instructor say, when bukit... let go a bit clutch and add a lil "oil" and repeat the step, so my left leg up and right leg down bit by bit and i end up passing the bukit test~ WOOHOO ~ as for road, i wouldn't pass it without ehem.. haha.... i know my level... so ~ it was a rigt choice !! =P getting my P next week.... YAY !! but while i screaming... hmm.... looked around.... hmm..... THERE'S NO CAR FOR ME TO DRIVE !!! haha

how many times??

how many times am i suppose to wake up because of something like an explosion??

ppl who read my blog always will know that 13th april i woke up because of my house's oven explosion... today! my bro's chair broken !! the spring bounced out and hit some plastic and metals... it sounds like an explosion !! dammit !! always got shock from sleep and wake up furiously... really scares me wei !! aikz aikz

anyone know what phone is good to sms and with camera de?? XD i know the requirement i'm looking is quite common... but please let me know if you have some recommendations... currenlty my phone can store like 50 messages in my inbox only... i'm looking for like 1k~3k storage?? haha... it really piss me off, everyday deleting my inbox message... >.<