an article

hey, i read an article and i think it's kinda true.... it sounds as below...

the hair on our skull is like the problems we are facing.... everyday we grow new hair and we drop hair too... it's like everyday we'll face new problems and solved some old problems.... and when some ppl chose to be a monk or a nun, that means they willing to let go everything and really into the religion.... they accepted it... we can't choose what problems to face but we can choose what problems to solve... it's like we can't controlling the growing of our hair but we can cut or plug out our hair.... my hair is getting thicker... does it means my problems are getting bigger?? HAHA...

just wish i'll never emo again... i din really wanted to.....

dreaming

seriously, this few days really driving me crazy, my mind is totally out of my mind !! almost uncontrollable...

everyday i'm dreaming bout all the ppl... to be exactly... manda, may jin, an ting, rebecca, kar how, jason, andrea, kian boon, chun ming, king yang, vin zhan.... all keep appearing in my dreams... and each of them like inside a channel, my dreams can switch from one to another in just a blink of mind !! obviously everyone knows my favourite channel !! haha... but this dream tv got problem de !! will auto change channel... haha... i wish there's someone on earth can invent something like a dream camera?? take down image in dreams.... i had so much sweet memories in my dreams... really wish it WILL happen... haha....

started to work and everyday dream like that, my mind really tired... really really tired... sorry for not texting everybody or reply anyone's message in time.... really not suppose to use phone during my work... but i will check when it vibrates cause in case it's the sub-boss call me... haha...

weird dreams

this few days, seriously OH MY GOSH?? i'm dreaming of my friends 1 by 1 everyday, 27th i dreamt bout jason lim stealing my breakfast, 28th i dreamt of kar how playing roller coaster with me at genting.... today 29th, duno i'll dream bout who le??

before ns, i sort of having a drama dream!! it's continuously one... i din even know the conclusion yet, so fast end liao meh?? haiz... 2nd last episode was buying milk powder for the baby-gonna-born one... haha !! dreaming ~

true enough??

Everybody's got something they had to leave behind
All this I know but still I can't find ways to let you go

Till that day that I found you
Even though I pretend that I've moved on
You'll always be my baby

I never found the words to say
You're the one I think about each day

am i hurting??

the title meant in 2 ways...

1stly
am i hurting myself?? as in because she already confessed that she fell in love with a friend of mine... now i'm just like a friend being around for her... i really like who she is... i dun care for her background, weaknesses, or whatever... but of course i'm wishing her to be happy all the time. it's hard to make someone really feels happy for quite a while right?? maybe i wanna be like the yes man's main actor... dun plan for holidays... we just take the earliest flight after we arrived the airport... and enjoy our life... it's hard knowing her loving someone so deeply, but it's even harder for me knowing her being sad somewhere... after all, it's hardest when i know she's in that kind of bad condition or situation that makes her duno what to do and have to keep everything to herself... i saw a sentence that day, " the best thing on earth is free ", so, i wish her for the best lah... sometimes i say i dun mind that she dun likes me, but it's just a way to comfort myself and just not make things hard for her cause it's like forcing her to a corner... hope the lucky angel or the love angel will be on my side someday =)

2ndly
sometimes i really doubt it, am i stupid being this way? everytime i'm making ppl feeling bad or worries bout me, most of the time they see me emo but they can't really do anything bout it... because i chose not to say it out.. sometimes i think i've hurt them in some way... but seriously, it's not i dun wanna tell out, it's because i know if i open my mouth, i'll broke down and cry out loud, that's the worst situation that i wish no one will "saw" it... prom night, i tried to talk... but ends up crying in the toilet.. i know myself very well, that's why i choose the best way to cover myself?? i wish the way i chose to be won't affect my friends, i really dun wan to hurt any of them... i chose to be silence, and there's a reason... because i will break down !! ok, stop for now... no way i can be emo now !!! stupid me

mixed feeling =(

hahaha !! what a stupid me... been guessing all this while and i really failed this time... i thought i really knew her and this time i really guessed it wrong... i thought it was him all the time and end up it was another guy... i felt really failed...

she decided to confess everything and really expressed herself... i guess because everyone dun hav any time more for anything so she gave it a last try... NS is kinda long and it's really sad that you cannot see someone you love for like 3 months?? to be specific, it's only 76 days i heard? haiz... jason always told how hurt it is knowing the person you love eye into a best friend of yours... now i know she already fall into the guy who is kinda close to me also... i guess my feeling now is very weird... i really din't expect that to happen to me but seriously i failed this time...

i felt all mixed up now... seriously i din expect it'll be him... she really kept it well... she's right and always do... never fall in someone over deeply... but she had some miss saying during spm, she keeps talking bout him everyday... =P it's not over the expectation too much... haha!! i can't find any song that suits my mood now... just wish her will be happy... and gratz to him lo... he's the luckiest man =P it's better that she fell in someone that is really good in taking care of ppl?? although he have lots of bad things, but i can list out the good things of his too =) good luck to her also la =)

is there any way that i can really let go of her... although i dun think she'll read my blog, but i'll feel better after i blogged here evertime... knowing the truth is really suffering huh? i wish i never knew the truth and let me guess the wrong person until the end... haha... i really duno how to express sadness of mine... what i can do is to make more fake laughs??

never fear, never sad, never happy, never loved, never give up

it's me and it always do.... just me, me and me... i and myself are gone... it's just me....

it's christmas eve !! woohoo

haha, it's a christmas eve for everyone today.. haha..

today, went to a friend's house at damansara idaman?? somewhere near tropicana i guess ?? ahah, took cab there and i dun really know the place.. haha... even the friend's house.. erm, i also not sure is she my friend... lolz... i din even said a hi to her before... haha... but it's kinda cool going her house... she has a toy dog and a siberian husky... which is kinda rare in malaysia i suppose?? cause it's super expensive, but seriously it's very cute although it's a big one.. haha... and really like her house... wish to have a house like hers but it's kinda hard to clean up the house cause it's way too big... i dun plan to get a maid in the future also... cause having a maid really shows that you're a lousy and lazy person... in my own opinion la, we shouldn't get maids cause we should do our own housecore and stuff la... although i'm not a really good person in doing my own things, but i'll try to practice it as the time passes lo... haha.... watched wild child half way at her house, wild child is a good movie i think, cause it talks bout really naughty girls... haha !! but we all have to start moving to the curve for the christmas count down.... that's why we have to leave the wild child and proceed to the curve lo... haha... everyone was playing crazy there... haha... we bought like 3 boxes of sprays... and everyone just spamm sprays like crazy.... money really flies.. haha....

everyone just keep paying money and get the sprays to spray at strangers?? haha... it's good to meet new friends... but sometimes some ppl might just get angry and start a fight... we did witnessed a fight between some malays and some chinese... not being racist... heh... the worst part is both the malay and the chinese also bleed like some hell and they're still fighting each other.... there was 1 guy... his forehead, cheeks, nose and mouth are bleeding, so freaking scary... haiz.... wonders why they fight also....

i din really get into the christmas mood there... was busy clearing the spray cans around her, haha... because i saw her fell down once and i cannot afford to see her fall down again... busy clearing those cans for like half an hour?? and tried my best to block all the sprays... haha... cause she really hate ppl spraying right at her face... and it's suffering seeing her keep coughing and i can't really do anything...tried my hardest =) but still... not good enough... i saw her leg got stepped 3 times?? and her leg turned black cause the stepper's shoes not clean enough i guess?? haha... anywayz, i felt kinda happy doing so... it's like protecting her silently?? eventhough i know i won't have any chance being the special one... but i'm already satisfied being this way.... it's not i wanna be the stupid one or anything, but it's really hard to let go someone that meant so much to me...

missing those time

- how you used to appreciate everything i've done for you
- how you used to greet me in the morning
- how you always convince me in doing something, it do helps a lot
- how you always ask me not to worry
- how you always laugh in school that makes my day bright
- how you always express your thoughts and feelings with me,
it's the best moment i ever had

bleeding

YES MAN !! nice movie though.... highly recommended...

today woke up with a bloody mouth !! whole tongue is full of blood... duno what happened, my teeth keep bleeding.... i can't even bite food properly....and it hurts a lot !! so suffering chewing food now... both left and right also pain... i'm already worrying like some hell d.... still wan me to suffer from this bleeding thinge.... damm suck la !! at night wanna sleep also take me like an hour !! worry this worry that, pain here pain there.... damm !!!

feeling weird

today, got to teman a friend to undang seminar, of course i'm involved too la, cause i also have to take my license too ma... but he called me last night and i decide it within a minute, then today followed to the seminar and sat there for like 6 hours lifelessly... the best thing bout seminar is ashy dent (accident) only.... the guy keep pronounce as ashy dent and it do sounds like presiden... haha....

after seminar, since everyone so concern bout her, so i give it a try... i went to her house... but once i like step into her house's front area... 1 girl/lady appeared at 2nd floor and looking at me... and i look back at her... that moment, i felt something very weird... it's like 1 kind of feeling that tells me that person really dun wan to do so... i hope that's her but the feel i got at that moment was like her mom was the one who looking at me... but anyhow, i just feel like i'm gonna lose something or someone while i standing looking at that person.... and my tears just drop out like i already lost something... i walked away and i turned back, she's still looking... i really wish that was her at that moment, i will try my hardest and never give up no matter what happened... i've decided....

i was kinda down after that, so i went 1u alone.... wasted 5 bucks on arcade... end up won all the matches... it's like so few ppl today and no match at all.... really wanted to express so badly... after that i went to buy chicken kebab and eat lo, while i was q'ing for the kebab, lee ping pass by... at the back of me.... but she din notice me.. i guess i wasn't that special after all... haha... after i bought my kebab, wanted to go back arcade to check, is there any pro playing there... mana tahu i got shocked in front of TGV.... i met cheau wei and cheau rou there... the twins sister shopping on sunday !! haha... then when i reach arcade, i saw the twins brother !! en kane and en dru playing daytona... both of them so pro.... drifting at the speed of 320km/h and every drifts so perfect.... really wish can learn from them.. haha.. meeting 2 twins in da same day =)

out of sight, out of mind

3 days without any sound from the phone... i felt so abnormal for not texting anymore.....

out of sight, out of mind

out of sight i already succeed, cause i won't be seeing her anymore...
out of mind, i still need more time to do so, i'm thinking all the time... she's everywhere >.<

dammit, why?? why?? why?? haiz....

first time in my history or others' history??

i guess i'm mentally sick... and i need some mental fixing treatment... haha...

yesterday like everyone playing so fun.... i was having fun also i guess.... then the stupid guard says girls also cannot wear shirt in the swimming pool, then she started to down again... i duno why everytime she's feeling down, i will feel down too...

looking at her when she's feeling so down, i dun feel nice too... i was standing 1 side and eat drink then drink eat and eat drink again and again until she started to talk i only go back into the swimming pool... but seriously i'm such an useless person huh?? standing 1 side doing nothing and worrying in the heart only... when inside the lift... i heard something that make me feel even down'er... i was thinking at that moment too, why the other 2 boon can cheer her up so easily... but me, this boon.... weird, boring and useless.... wanna make her smile for 0.1 second also cannot...

but the main thing i wanna say here is... something i dun even believe it will happen but it already happened this morning... when i was sitting alone this morning, i was thinking bout my past... what did i do?? what actually happened to me... yesterday when she was feeling so down and sent a weird message... i wasn't doing anything at all... did i lost hope?? did i gave up?? i really duno what am i thinking at that moment but somehow felt that i couldn't bother it anymore... haiz... but this morning, the very first time that i emo til i vomitted twice... i felt really suffering in the heart and it just vomit like that... i guess i'm both physically and mentally damaged... i guess i need to speed up myself to seek for the key of happiness or joy, or else i will sink into the ocean with all my depresssion...

many ppl think i need a counselor? (not sure the spelling) i guess no need la, a quiet person like me and seldom share my feelings de.... i guess i won't trust the counselor also... haha... i feel more safe sharing with those i care for or care for me

fate

our lives are made in these twists and turns of fate....

i really cannot forget the way i feel right now....

i thought~

i thought everything will be ended...
i thought that i won't see her again anymore...
i though what i did was the best i could...

it's hard to kill a heart that's full of love when that someone is just so near... the best way is not seeing her anymore... i seriously wanted to control my heart... should i??? it's so suffering doing things this way... seriously, i duno what to do mann.... i really thought everything can just let go like that... but the feeling still held in my heart... it's not just that kind of love love talking or feeling... it's something deep inside the heart... haiz....

i thought i won't get hurt anymore...
i thought i could let go
i thought i won't bother it anymore....

someone please tell me what should i do... i'm seriously lost

the biggest decision i made

after schooling days ~ after spm ~ after genting ~ after prom ~
i've made a big decision today...
after all that, i notice i'm not mature enough, i'm typing all this now also showed that i'm not mature enough... haha... i'm accepting all the advises from my friends... it's time to make such a decision... and here, i'm gonna say all the truth... out of so many friends... there's only 3 ppl that really support me loving her... others all dun support me... i'm not gonna disappoint the 3 friends of mine.... but i guess i need more time... the me now is someone who really duno how to talk, how to express, and how to care bout the others... everytime need everyone to help me to solve my problems... i can never solve it on my own...

everytime we hang out i also need other ppl to fetch me or help me in my transport... i'm always the one who troubles other people with my own problem... and i also emo... i duno how to take care myself and love myself... i shouldn't attempt to take care or even love other people yet...

i can never know how to treat ppl nice, everytime i only know how to make ppl angry and scold me like some hell... i think i'm still not someone that can really take care of her... but i wanted to let her know that i really love her... but for now... i'll try my hardest to make everything done first... i will try my best to let her know that i love her.... but wait until more stable first lah =) same sentence again, i really wish my first to be my last.... this is the first time i felt my heart so pain blogging... it's like i'm killing my heart >.< haiz.... i really dun wish to end this love.... i wan an endless love... haha...

after spm, i'm feeling down
after genting, i'm feeling even down
after prom, i'm feeling the worst...

i stayed in love but i will limit myself... most emo songs i ever heard is playing on my blog =)

watching movie at the right time??

i just watched a movie called Meet the Robinson... it's a cartoon actually... but the movie is really good... i was feeling a bit down... so i look up for some movies to watch.... end up i'm with this cartoon thinge..

this show is about a kid who was abandoned by his mom at the orphanage, he been through 143 "interview" with those who want to adopt a child... but cause of his inventions of machines... he scare off all those couples... because he wants to meet his mom, he invented a memory scanner to see why his mom abandoned him... he went to a science fair to show his invention, but end up he met with his future son... he came to save him from danger and bla bla bla... and his orphanage roommate turned bad cause of his baseball match failure.... ok la... just go watch it.... it's a good movie.... and some part is funny....

i wanted to say that... what i learnt from this movie... every choices make a difference in our life... that's why we have to make our decisions right... in this movie, it also says that we should look at the positive side instead of negatives... we should keep moving forward, opening new doors and doing new things no matter how many times we failed or how hard life is... because we're curious... and the curiosity is the thing that keeps leading us down new paths...

that's the same goes to smoking.... we're curious... so end up if we can't control.... we'll have to stick with cigarettes for the rest of our lives.... every decisions make a difference....

after watching this movie... i guess i shouldn't be so sad and depress anymore... i shall keep moving forward.... doing new things... what happened already happen.... so.... let it go.... listen to my playlist's little wonders bah =) it helped me a lot from today's mood =) i guess i watched the movie at the right time... =)

btw, this is my 100th post... gratz to me... haha.... not spamming posts.... this shows i've emo'ed for 100 times... haha... an emo'er is emo'ing with his emoness in this emo world

do i deserve it ??

prom is like a gathering for everyone of us for the last time... it suppose to be something happy or enjoying.... but why am i feeling so bad?? the prom passed, and i felt like it's something i shouldn't attend?? i went to prom is like stabbing a knife on my chest... every scene is so hurting... i know i'm being jealous, but who wouldn't?? even a best friend thought they're coupling... every moment looking at them is like slicing my arm... but i look at her not to hurt myself, i just wanna make sure she's safe... but why !! no matter what i did i'm like won't get my credits... i'm trying so hard already... i even started not to fear while talking to her...

last night, when everyone of us getting down from car... none of them even thought of holding an umbrella.... me.... purposely borrowed an umbrella just to make sure the girl(s) won't get sick... but end up i got no credit too and everyone was like saying the other person... seriously... i duno why am i hurting so much... i already knew she's loving someone so deeply... and yet i still love her... everytime she's telling me how much she loved him... and making me not to love her... but why am i still loving her?? looking at her smile is like the most happy time... having a time together = heavenly feeling... the way she speaks, i can find no words to describe... and everytime i feel like no one notice me at all... even when we yam cha'ing last night... i'm gone for like 2 minutes only got ppl notice.... 2 minutes.... it's long enough to suicide already... i loved her for who she is... i dun mind what's the cost... as long as i know i'll live for her... why life has to be so miserable?? things always cannot go well... why am i feeling so down....

did she cared for my feeling?? i duno... cause it's like yesno all the time... i can't expect the person i love to love me.... i really shouldn't go prom.... now what?? i'm crying all alone?? 1 of my friend told me that i cry = stupid... for just a girl... he also said that if she dun love me is her lost... cause i'm someone so good?? i dun even think i'm good or whatsoever... good ppl are failures... shouldn't be borned at the first place... now i know why ppl wanted to be bad guys... i'm even feeling wanted to be 1 of them... for ppl who are close to me... they should know what i WAS... but seriously i dun wan to get affectedd by all this love love thing and turn back to what i WAS...

or should i think a lil further?? i shouldn't transfer back to this school?? or i shouldn't join club setia or go cheer 2008.... everything is connected... but why ?!?!?! it's like so random and so suckz... 1 time happy 1 time sad... but every sadness is double the happiness i had....

why i have to see all those scenes?? it's like so bleeding... i've asked myself... will she be happy if she's with me?? will she live nicely without any problems like what she's facing now?? i can't even make her smile even for 1 second.... seeing other making her smile... it's good to see her smile... i just couldn't control it anymore... i'm feeling so bad and down now... first time i felt so down that i'm even tears'ing while i'm blogging... but who cares right?? no one care bout me... no one will even notice me... i cried also no one care one la.... do i deserve it??

why ?? why ?? why ??
do i deserve it?? do i really have to face all this?? do i really have to do this?? i'm feeling so so so so so so bad now.... but suiciding will be a stupid way to end everything... i guess i'll just stay with all this pain. Why? i really don know what else to say. just wanna let her know i really love her.

malfunction of my brain ?? first time in my life

haha, i'm feeling weird today, i duno am i happy or sad... it's just so damm weird... and today is the first time i couldn't use my brain... RM364 / 5 = RM71.50 ?? and RM58.50 / 5 = RM11.90 ?? omg... i felt so failed wei... i calculated 2 things wrongly today !! which 364/5 = 72.8 and 58.5/5 = 11.7 omg wei... i duno why i can't calculate today... conclusion : thinking of her will result in calculation failure or brain malfunction =( but at least i have someone to think of =)

my condition is getting worse and worse as the days pass by... even when i wanna text my bro i went to text her... everytime i wanna sms someone, the first name pop out on my mind is hers... it's like i'll checking the phone every moment... how lucky am i to have someone to text with everyday... i'm gladful.... today watched twilight... it's nice i suppose?? cause some ppl say it was OK or some even say it was BORING ~ it's so nice seeing 2 ppl loving each other so deep... and i guess i won't feel it in quite a time... haha... and that Edward guy.... woo.... so cool... haha...

perfect sentence during movie : his nose bleeding !!

haha, what a nice one.... all of us laughed....

And I keep on telling myself
That you'll come back around
And I try to front like "oh well"
Each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now
No matter what I do
Baby, baby I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep It hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me I ain't the same no more

my favourite sentences from i stay in love...

i stayed in love instead of giving up =)

Tag =)

I was tagged by Steph once again =)

Rules:
1.Link to the person that tagged you.
2.Post the rules in your blog.
3.Share 6 non-important things/habits/quirks about yourself.
4.Tag 6 random people at the end of your post by linking to their blogs.
5.Let each person know they have been tagged by leaving a comment on their website.
6.Reply to me when you're finish.

1. I'm dreaming all the time =)
2. Normally ppl duno what i'm thinking... haha
3. I have a angry face?? haha someone just told me this >.<
4. No one dare to bully me at genting =P
5. I always rub my forehead when i can't think of something
6. I love solving maths questions =P
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And I'm tagging :
1. Cheau Wei
2. Raja
3. Jason Lim
4. Lee Ping
5. Sook Teng
6. Poh Yee

never regret ~

first of all, i'm gonna say i'm not regreting for going genting for the past 3 days, the day before the trip, which was 7th dec, i was still thinking to go or not to go because i'm worried i'll be sad or down or emo or what so ever and sweep everyone's joy (sweep joy = sou heng in can), but i decided to go also la.... heh... that night, i chatted with 3 ppl that is kinda close with me de la... they asked me to let go of her cause there's no chance at all for me... i'm so stupid that i even tried to forget her, i deleted around 70 messages of hers in my phone (max 80 la)... but end up i still can't do it, i'm happy seeing her smile or laugh... for the past 3 days, i've seen enough... she's so happy... but no matter what, i shouldn't even try to forget bout her... because seriously she's damm special and unique like no other... i shall punish myself for doing so >.< i will never regret for loving her, but i regret what i've done for attempting to forget her... i'm keeping my foot steady on the ground now and never doubt bout it anymore

it was fun enjoying all the games with my friends... especially the racing car... before playing also got fun d.... a friend of mine was asking what should she do if the car flip over or how to start the engine and etc... haha i know i'll be sad during this trip d, and everything is under expectation... haha... although i know i'll be hurt and i still go (how brave was i huh?!) heh, i almost tears but i din cause the weather made me unable to tears >.< i wanted to express so badly but i dun wan everyone to be like no mood to play lo... so end up i'm not so active lo... i thought of the consequences also, what will i get for expressing myself?? so end up i decided not to do anything also lo... seriously i duno why we couldn't talk face to face... everytime we talk also like indirect talking...

ok la, i shall focus myself in the next coming prom... i haven got my tie and long sleeve shirt =(

the sobness and anger

yesterday was my first time tearing while reading someone's blog... it's so touching... it must be hard for him to went through so many things....

after reading his blog, i realise i'm kinda same?? but obviously i'm not, because she WAS in love with him and my case is she's not even in love with me... >.< it's a big decision to make, no matter how brave a person is.... it's really hard to make such decision... but i'm not making the same decision as his... he chose to let the girl go and let her happy....me le... i decided not to talk bout it anymore until she's ready or something... because i just couldn't afford to see her like this anymore... i dun wan to see any sad, angry or rather unwilling expressions from her anymore... even though it's hard to make such decision, but i just wish to see her happy smile rather than the sad or angry face... she possessed a nice smile and she should always hang it out... today, i saw that unwilling face once again... just like what happened before going in to watch the luckiest man... i guess not many ppl know bout it... heh...

i will always protect you, and that's why i always walk behind you, it's not i wanna stalk or what so ever, just in case if there's anything happen from the back, you'll be protected... it's not i dun wan to talk, it's because i'm never serious... whatever came out from my mouth is lame... just wish to see your smile always =)

but seriously... sometimes i really cannot stand all the people around cause they keep making fun of it... what's the big deal?? even i'm walking beside her, doesn't mean there's anything between me and her right?? why must ppl do that kind of stupid face and say those stupid things?? i dun care how much it hurts me... but can you all please respect her?? so what if i like her?? so what if i dun grab my chance?? mind your own business la... seriously cannot stand wei...

tomorrow we're going to genting... having fun for 3 days and 2 nights?? i hope it will be fun la... really dun wanna see anyone angry or sad... today i'm so piss off until my eyes turned red.... i do have enough sleep last night, so i dun think it's lack of sleep... ppl should realise i'm damm quiet today, but only after tesco i guess?? cause it happened during tesco... >.<

i tears'ed and i fist'ed, mixing feelings, sobbing and anger... all over my mind

wish you all the best during this genting trip, and wish you'll have all the fun... dun wanna see you feeling down anymore...

i felt better ??

it's good to keep ourselves busy all the time so we won't simply think or emo !! ahah

today, i actually used around 7 hours to clean up my whole room, although it's a small one, but i clean it slowly... ahah...

and i've shifted my com back into my room....
3 months ago i shift it out for 1 reason only... which is sms....
now, i seldom sms already.... so i guess no need to put it outside anymore...

i put my phone silence for 4 months already... sometimes i just hate to hear it rings cause it always disappoint me... haha... but now.... it don't even vibrate...... for 4 days already.... i mean it do vibrate... but it's another disappointment lo... maybe i'm just out of topics?? haha... i dun watch the tv show anymore.. cause i always dun get to watch.... who ask me so good obey my dad?? haha.... he always watch those malay show also dun let me watch "addicted to love"... haiz.. let me less topic nia... haha... but i think if we're living together.... no need to watch tv show also sure got topic one... haha...

ok, stop dreaming and face the fact... haiz.... haha... least emo day today cause 7 hours passed like a blink... >.<

what a day

it's a weird feeling, it's kinda real but somehow i know it's fake... at least i WAS happy in my imagination world... i seriously felt i'm the luckiest man on earth for few moments =) really miss those feelings.

i never doubt like this before ~

should i give up ??

maybe it's better for us

or

please show me a clearer view as the time passes...

i'm so lost....