看了家有喜事，记得了这两句话。
爱其实很简单~
只要你可以在他眼中看见你自己，那就表示他是爱你的。
haiz, 今年的新年过的还蛮惨的，每天都过着地狱似的生活，也不是因为乡下太无聊，只是每天收到的简讯都很心痛。虽然她每时每刻都对我坦白，但是我每天都好像过着不知什么的生活，每天都好像在自己的童话里。相信明天会更好。其实我知道，在这世界上，根本就很难可以找到一个可以忍耐我性格的人，就算是我最要好的朋友，都会不时地忍不住，我自己也很想改变啊！！每天都被人说我，很无聊！！很闷！！ 勇敢点！！你们以为我不想啊？每天对着自己喜欢的人，但却无能为力， 我也想勇敢点啊！！我也不想无聊的啊，只是我每次真的不知道要说些什么的，不是每个人都可以像别人一样，开开心心的，不时地给意见，我就是和别人不一样，难道这样也有错吗？我已经很努力的在改变着，只是没什么效果。也许去了三个月的国名服务会好一些吧！！ 我也很努力地在告诉她，她对我是多么的重要，我是多么的爱她，但是她给的回应都是在转换话题，我也明白了，她是不想伤害我，但是也不恨我，也想给自己一些时间。我已经很很很努力了！！！ 可以给我再说一次我爱你吗？
我已经努力的在说话了！！！
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Friday, January 23, 2009
the day i confused so much
many thoughts running in my mind today... i can no longer differentiate between right and wrong... and seriously, i duno who am i, what am i to anyone anymore... it's so confusing... i'm still lost here... every decisions seem so not right and everything just don't go well... anywayz, i've finished my work.... and will be going back to hometown in like an hour for 5 days... won't be online'ing within this 5 days... haiz... really miss facebook'ing and chatting with friends in msn and dota'ing with my fellow friends.... 5 days, i can tahan one !! =P
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports. and my life go on because of you -
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports. and my life go on because of you -
Thursday, January 22, 2009
last day
tomorrow friday, 23rd January will be my last day working at Giant Atria as a Carlsberg promoter, total i worked 26 days... with 12 days FULL continuously... 12 days... 10am to 10pm, how tiring will that be huh?? carrying stock in and out, up and down everyday.... moving here and there, helping customers to search for stuff... even though i'm wearing a carlsberg shirt, but sometimes i really feel like i'm a giant staff instead of carlsberg promoter, the words are like too small for the customers to read... i even memorized all the rows, so whenever customer ask for anything, just have to tell them the number of the row...
din really feel like promoting my carlsberg after that incident, but since tomorrow is my last day, i'll blast the sale to the maximum la =) it's an easy job to get sale as long as i talk... i always say to myself... when i work, i care bout quality not quantity... i provide them "delivery service" i help them carry to the car no matter how far it is... and if they ask for more free gifts, i'll just give... of course sometimes i do complain la, cause those ppl really like... OMG... buy something RM20+ and i gave a free gift which cost RM5, they wan like 3 more.... so end up the drink is FREE !! haiz.. but what to do, if i dun give, then they dun buy, and they tell their friends... lots of thing get affected... so i'll just give lah... worked for 26 days.... knew many ppl, seen many customers.... it could be a lesson after all... never treat ppl too good when you just know them, they might be just USING you for their own advantages after all... i din mean that everyone will be the same... but we're all human... the best and the worst created creature...
can you actually believe our mental is stronger than our physical?? if there's something affecting your mental, you can actually exceed your limit of physical strength... as long as you tell yourself you can do it !! that means you can do it !! today, 500 cartons of carlsberg came... moving half way.... really really tired... almost half dead already, but when i see her message in my phone, it's like... i'm gonna finish it !! haha... she gave lots of strength to me...
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports -
din really feel like promoting my carlsberg after that incident, but since tomorrow is my last day, i'll blast the sale to the maximum la =) it's an easy job to get sale as long as i talk... i always say to myself... when i work, i care bout quality not quantity... i provide them "delivery service" i help them carry to the car no matter how far it is... and if they ask for more free gifts, i'll just give... of course sometimes i do complain la, cause those ppl really like... OMG... buy something RM20+ and i gave a free gift which cost RM5, they wan like 3 more.... so end up the drink is FREE !! haiz.. but what to do, if i dun give, then they dun buy, and they tell their friends... lots of thing get affected... so i'll just give lah... worked for 26 days.... knew many ppl, seen many customers.... it could be a lesson after all... never treat ppl too good when you just know them, they might be just USING you for their own advantages after all... i din mean that everyone will be the same... but we're all human... the best and the worst created creature...
can you actually believe our mental is stronger than our physical?? if there's something affecting your mental, you can actually exceed your limit of physical strength... as long as you tell yourself you can do it !! that means you can do it !! today, 500 cartons of carlsberg came... moving half way.... really really tired... almost half dead already, but when i see her message in my phone, it's like... i'm gonna finish it !! haha... she gave lots of strength to me...
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports -
is she the only one??
everyone saying liking someone isn't like living together with someone, when you like a person, there's almost no reponsibility, i mean as for younger age ppl, when they say i like you, they dun really think far in the future, they just hate being single?? or scared when they're single will get criticize... if you're living together, then you have hell lot things to responsible... of course i shouldn't think bout living together la... it's like so far away !! but i'm just wondering lah, am i able to cope with living together?? there was once that i have such chance, but i've lost it cause of some issues... haha... i still remember she asked me on 26th september, whether wanna stay at her place by paying her rental... maybe you guys think that i simply type out a date, but it's the fact... although i dun hav the proof, but it's just real lah, duno how to explain.. ahah... of course it's not going well between us all the time, and it's super hard for us to be together?? ppl say emo ppl dun suit emo ppl... cause emo + emo = silent, duno lah, but seriously i can do nothing in front of her...
normally a boy will become stronger or better when the person he likes is around, but i'm different, because the others like to show off?? haha... i remember that time i was playing futsal, early game still ok de, but until she appears, i miss every passing and every attempts of scoring goal... i even felt tired... that moment just feel like leaving the field and concern bout her cause she din reply for days.... maybe my thinking still not mature enough or something... ppl always say dun because of 1 tree and give up the whole forest, or there's still plenty of flowers outside the garden... but... i just like the flower that is so special to me... maybe it's not the time yet, maybe it's not the stage for me to really know how to concern bout someone?? ppl who know me should know i'm a retard person, a person that dun dare to talk in front of a group of ppl, a person that is shy to talk to girls, a person that duno how to cope around with girls and etc, i just duno why i couldn't really talk to girls, but i really wish i can change all this someday la... i really need to talk to her... haiz...
to anyone who read this, please answer me
am i scary?? cause i notice like quite a lot ppl afraid of me??? or i'm just too emo for you guys to talk with?? i duno lah, just feel like, if i duno maths, no one will talk to me, if i dun be lame, no one will remember me, if i dun emo, no one will notice me... just because i know maths, i'm lame and i emo, ppl only talk to me, remember me, and notice me.... or else... i'm just like an invisible person who lives on the earth... at SMKDJ for 3 years and 8 months.... i almost know all the form 5s without talking to them... but there's plenty of ppl actually duno bout me?? even the next class ppl never heard of me?? i'm just feeling so odd, living in an environment that no one recognizes me... it's not i got affected by her, but seriously, maybe a new environment will suits us better... human are so easy-change-able, easchangable, HAHA because of a new thing, forgot the old ones on the next day =(
sad sad sad
normally a boy will become stronger or better when the person he likes is around, but i'm different, because the others like to show off?? haha... i remember that time i was playing futsal, early game still ok de, but until she appears, i miss every passing and every attempts of scoring goal... i even felt tired... that moment just feel like leaving the field and concern bout her cause she din reply for days.... maybe my thinking still not mature enough or something... ppl always say dun because of 1 tree and give up the whole forest, or there's still plenty of flowers outside the garden... but... i just like the flower that is so special to me... maybe it's not the time yet, maybe it's not the stage for me to really know how to concern bout someone?? ppl who know me should know i'm a retard person, a person that dun dare to talk in front of a group of ppl, a person that is shy to talk to girls, a person that duno how to cope around with girls and etc, i just duno why i couldn't really talk to girls, but i really wish i can change all this someday la... i really need to talk to her... haiz...
to anyone who read this, please answer me
am i scary?? cause i notice like quite a lot ppl afraid of me??? or i'm just too emo for you guys to talk with?? i duno lah, just feel like, if i duno maths, no one will talk to me, if i dun be lame, no one will remember me, if i dun emo, no one will notice me... just because i know maths, i'm lame and i emo, ppl only talk to me, remember me, and notice me.... or else... i'm just like an invisible person who lives on the earth... at SMKDJ for 3 years and 8 months.... i almost know all the form 5s without talking to them... but there's plenty of ppl actually duno bout me?? even the next class ppl never heard of me?? i'm just feeling so odd, living in an environment that no one recognizes me... it's not i got affected by her, but seriously, maybe a new environment will suits us better... human are so easy-change-able, easchangable, HAHA because of a new thing, forgot the old ones on the next day =(
sad sad sad
Monday, January 19, 2009
the real world
today i've seen many kinds of ppl, and i actually can't believe what i saw...
today started a lil weird, early in the morning, around 8am i saw Anthea?? at the car park of atria dj ?? it's kinda odd seeing her there?? or i was just dreaming cause i just woke up when i was passing by there.... haha... after that, the work started quite busy... i was arranging stockz all the time until like almost 12pm... everything wasn't going well... not as good as yesterday la... and i have this very very bad feeling of the day, who knows afternoon came this customer,
customer : few days ago i bought was rm5 more expensive than today's price...
me : ya, the price dropped
customer : *paused for a moment* that day i bought, you remember me right??
me : ya, i helped you carried to your car
customer : why the price drop like that ?? you're cheating me??
me : i dun even know the price will drop somemore, i receive the news only in the morning everyday, sometimes we have immediate price change in the afternoon or at night also, i din say it was the lowest price when you buy, i just said it's cheap
customer : walao, you carlsberg really scamming customers wei... like that i buy tiger better, it's only 103 and yours 106 after i bought it 111 *starting to ignore whatever i say*
me : yesterday tiger also was 108 la, today only dropped to 103... if you bought yesterday and come again today, what's your feeling seeing it?? mine was 3 days ago you know??
customer : at least they dun simply promote to customers
i nearly argued with her, at that moment i really wanted to scold kao her mann, that day i helped her carry to car, i waited under the sun for 15 minutes with her trolley and her stuff.... i din even say anything and still smile to her cause customer always right ma... and that day she even compliment me for being such a good boy for coming to work while waiting for spm result... she keep on talking bout that i scammed her all the way until she finished paying her stuff today, she even stared me before she leave the entrance... wth mann...
after that i started to no mood, and all the customers keep on passing by and i din care bout them, all regular customers and i really lazy to promote anymore !! later if drop again then i kena blame pula, (oh please, i was just doing my job k??) i din even know the price will drop that much... you think drop price very fun ah?? i need to change all the price tags and promote it with different way and need to remember the price PER CAN so i can promote more effectively... at this moment, my speed really very slow in everything i do, but then i still injured myself cause my actions too slow and i knocked the rack cause i'm trying to be slow, then my hand slipped off the pack and knock !! instant bleed and it was leaking !! blood dripping like water droplets... haha
i guess she's the only one who can comfort me... i really smiled and felt some happiness from inside when i was reading her messages... she said : "life is like a rubber band, everything you do is like stretching the band, as long as you did your best, it's enough... if you're trying to force yourself moving even further, you'll just end up breaking like a rubber band... it's not like you get lesser pay losing a customer, so just leave it la =) " the real world's ppl are so fake... when you helped them, they compliment you, smile at you.... once they realised they've spent extra money on something they shouldn't be, they acuse you and ignore whatever you say... or when you give them extra free gifts when they asked, they won't appreciate when they come again next time, they'll just ask for more and more... now i really understand why ppl say working can gain experience and know more ppl, because of the real world !! after this incident, i've learnt a lot... that's a good experience after being a beer promoter duing chinese new year... a worker of giant teach me, this is something that always happens, you just have to bear with it and starts your next day with a brighter thinking... and seriously i never see this worker angry before, he's always smiling... =)
and there's another customer which i really like that kind a lot !! he came to buy carlsberg few days ago at the price of 113, today he came but the price is 106, he say new year is like this one lah, the beers' price are not stable de ... nvm lah~ rm7 do charity la... heh, if i angry because of the 7 ringgit, how am i suppose to live happily?? i'm already 78 years old, perhaps ppl like him only know how to think openly...
5 more days and my job will end !! i just have to be tough for 5 more days !! gam ba teh !!
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports -
today started a lil weird, early in the morning, around 8am i saw Anthea?? at the car park of atria dj ?? it's kinda odd seeing her there?? or i was just dreaming cause i just woke up when i was passing by there.... haha... after that, the work started quite busy... i was arranging stockz all the time until like almost 12pm... everything wasn't going well... not as good as yesterday la... and i have this very very bad feeling of the day, who knows afternoon came this customer,
customer : few days ago i bought was rm5 more expensive than today's price...
me : ya, the price dropped
customer : *paused for a moment* that day i bought, you remember me right??
me : ya, i helped you carried to your car
customer : why the price drop like that ?? you're cheating me??
me : i dun even know the price will drop somemore, i receive the news only in the morning everyday, sometimes we have immediate price change in the afternoon or at night also, i din say it was the lowest price when you buy, i just said it's cheap
customer : walao, you carlsberg really scamming customers wei... like that i buy tiger better, it's only 103 and yours 106 after i bought it 111 *starting to ignore whatever i say*
me : yesterday tiger also was 108 la, today only dropped to 103... if you bought yesterday and come again today, what's your feeling seeing it?? mine was 3 days ago you know??
customer : at least they dun simply promote to customers
i nearly argued with her, at that moment i really wanted to scold kao her mann, that day i helped her carry to car, i waited under the sun for 15 minutes with her trolley and her stuff.... i din even say anything and still smile to her cause customer always right ma... and that day she even compliment me for being such a good boy for coming to work while waiting for spm result... she keep on talking bout that i scammed her all the way until she finished paying her stuff today, she even stared me before she leave the entrance... wth mann...
after that i started to no mood, and all the customers keep on passing by and i din care bout them, all regular customers and i really lazy to promote anymore !! later if drop again then i kena blame pula, (oh please, i was just doing my job k??) i din even know the price will drop that much... you think drop price very fun ah?? i need to change all the price tags and promote it with different way and need to remember the price PER CAN so i can promote more effectively... at this moment, my speed really very slow in everything i do, but then i still injured myself cause my actions too slow and i knocked the rack cause i'm trying to be slow, then my hand slipped off the pack and knock !! instant bleed and it was leaking !! blood dripping like water droplets... haha
i guess she's the only one who can comfort me... i really smiled and felt some happiness from inside when i was reading her messages... she said : "life is like a rubber band, everything you do is like stretching the band, as long as you did your best, it's enough... if you're trying to force yourself moving even further, you'll just end up breaking like a rubber band... it's not like you get lesser pay losing a customer, so just leave it la =) " the real world's ppl are so fake... when you helped them, they compliment you, smile at you.... once they realised they've spent extra money on something they shouldn't be, they acuse you and ignore whatever you say... or when you give them extra free gifts when they asked, they won't appreciate when they come again next time, they'll just ask for more and more... now i really understand why ppl say working can gain experience and know more ppl, because of the real world !! after this incident, i've learnt a lot... that's a good experience after being a beer promoter duing chinese new year... a worker of giant teach me, this is something that always happens, you just have to bear with it and starts your next day with a brighter thinking... and seriously i never see this worker angry before, he's always smiling... =)
and there's another customer which i really like that kind a lot !! he came to buy carlsberg few days ago at the price of 113, today he came but the price is 106, he say new year is like this one lah, the beers' price are not stable de ... nvm lah~ rm7 do charity la... heh, if i angry because of the 7 ringgit, how am i suppose to live happily?? i'm already 78 years old, perhaps ppl like him only know how to think openly...
5 more days and my job will end !! i just have to be tough for 5 more days !! gam ba teh !!
- i'm always trying my best in everything i do, especially with your supports -
Saturday, January 17, 2009
i wish
i wish i could tell her how much i love her
i wish everything will be fine no matter what's wrong
i wish that everyday will be a better day than before
i wish that life will be easier
i never wish for more... just praying for the best for everyone...
hoping that our friends won't forget us,
hoping our friends won't betray us,
hoping our friends will care bout us when we need them,
hoping our friends will really know how we felt and not just leaving us aside,
there's always hopes and wishes in our life... but normally it won't come true... because everything already happened and showed you the REAL WORLD ~
i wish everything will be fine no matter what's wrong
i wish that everyday will be a better day than before
i wish that life will be easier
i never wish for more... just praying for the best for everyone...
hoping that our friends won't forget us,
hoping our friends won't betray us,
hoping our friends will care bout us when we need them,
hoping our friends will really know how we felt and not just leaving us aside,
there's always hopes and wishes in our life... but normally it won't come true... because everything already happened and showed you the REAL WORLD ~
Thursday, January 15, 2009
gone ~
the feeling actually somehow gone today?? the missing feeling....
i really wish i can feel like how i felt today everyday...
things can be changed all the times, you just have to put in effort...
-gladness-
i really wish i can feel like how i felt today everyday...
things can be changed all the times, you just have to put in effort...
-gladness-
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
my feelings
it's kinda fun having friends at your working place... now i'm having 2 other friends working together... we can play around, joke around when there's no customers around.... but the thing is... i really feeling bad this few days... i really to know everything so badly... everything seem to be complicated and i really want a deeper understanding.... things that are happening around... i really wish i could know...
i guess no one can really understand how i feel now... things are not meant to be in this way, but why everything just couldn't be at least nice for a short while !!
it's 3 days already... having a really bad feeling.... i really want everything to be fine... but it just couldn't be... tomorrow i'm not gonna care anymore... i'll just give it all in...
i guess no one can really understand how i feel now... things are not meant to be in this way, but why everything just couldn't be at least nice for a short while !!
it's 3 days already... having a really bad feeling.... i really want everything to be fine... but it just couldn't be... tomorrow i'm not gonna care anymore... i'll just give it all in...
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
Monday, January 12, 2009
missing
lots of thing is missing now...
i really wish i could find them back tomorrow, i'm giving it a second attempt =(
shit it mann, never felt this way before...
please dun just leave like that....
i really wish i could find them back tomorrow, i'm giving it a second attempt =(
shit it mann, never felt this way before...
please dun just leave like that....
Sunday, January 11, 2009
money?
yay!! i've earned RM1200 on my own by working !! my first self-earned rm1200 !! 12 days later i'll be getting another RM800 !! so before CNY i'll be earning my FIRST 2k IN MY LIFE !!! woohoo !! muahahahahaz !! it's satisfying seeing the money after so long, hard working everyday 10am to 10pm.... MUST APPRECIATE MONEY !! it's so damm hard to earn !!
Friday, January 9, 2009
missing someone's advantages??
ho ho ho,
today i'm gonna talk bout my dreams ~ as in the one happens when you sleep.... not my ambition or some target to achieve...
this morning, i set my alarm 630am... but when it rings, i off and then continue my sleep... after that sleep, i'm dreaming bout i'm playing at cyber with chun ming, boon, kian boon, jen hoong, drea, san seng.... all my close friends la... then suddenly SHE came out and say : hey !! you're late already !! it's having jamm on the road now !! then i wake up it's already 720am !! after taking bath rush to the car, really having a jam outside... normally from house to working place = 15 minutes... today used like 40 minutes.... that's 1
secondly... after i reach, i still have 1 hours ++ so i sleep at the office before my work starts... of course, here i had my dreams again... my work starts at 10am, then when 9.59am, SHE come out from nowhere in my dream again and tell me i have 1 minute left to punch my working card... seriously it's damm fake... it's hard to believe also.... but nvm la, it's an advantage... free alarm but you have to rush... HAHA
today i'm gonna talk bout my dreams ~ as in the one happens when you sleep.... not my ambition or some target to achieve...
this morning, i set my alarm 630am... but when it rings, i off and then continue my sleep... after that sleep, i'm dreaming bout i'm playing at cyber with chun ming, boon, kian boon, jen hoong, drea, san seng.... all my close friends la... then suddenly SHE came out and say : hey !! you're late already !! it's having jamm on the road now !! then i wake up it's already 720am !! after taking bath rush to the car, really having a jam outside... normally from house to working place = 15 minutes... today used like 40 minutes.... that's 1
secondly... after i reach, i still have 1 hours ++ so i sleep at the office before my work starts... of course, here i had my dreams again... my work starts at 10am, then when 9.59am, SHE come out from nowhere in my dream again and tell me i have 1 minute left to punch my working card... seriously it's damm fake... it's hard to believe also.... but nvm la, it's an advantage... free alarm but you have to rush... HAHA
Thursday, January 8, 2009
first pic ever on my blog !!
do you know how much this ring cost??
it cost RM200+
can you read the words on it??
=)
remember
i'll remember everything of you
i'll remember every words you said
i'll remember every special day of yours
i'll remember every moments i had with you
in the end, we'll only just remember how it feels
i duno what else i can remember... my memory is almost full... it's time to knock away the "extras"
i'll remember every words you said
i'll remember every special day of yours
i'll remember every moments i had with you
in the end, we'll only just remember how it feels
i duno what else i can remember... my memory is almost full... it's time to knock away the "extras"
Monday, January 5, 2009
vampire?? or just me??
i'm starting to feel like AN Edward Cullen... i'm thinking of only her everyday when i'm working, no matter i'm at the working place, home, or even when i'm sleeping, i'll think and dream bout her, it's like how Edward Cullen thirst for Bella's blood... haha... how i wish i could see her sleep like how Edward did on Bella.... seeing her at times is like kinda not enough sometimes... i really wish i could protect her like how Edward protected Bella from the car accident... but that moon cake festival night... i failed... just like how Edward failed to protect Bella from James... how nice if i could possess those powers of Edward by not being a vampire... but it's just movie... haiz.... of course i'm not that kind of handsome ppl like Edward, some ppl say he's not handsome... depends lah... i'll just follow my opinion lah~ i think he's a handsome guy and i'm not la !! it's kinda cool if i could live forever to protect her forever huh?? now everyday i'm thinking, seriously... should i not go back kampung during CNY to teman her here?? should i dun go college and go form 6 to teman her?? or i should go college so i could get a better cert and a better life so i can give her a better life?? no matter what am i thinking or what am i doing, it will relate to her in the end... it's like no her no life.... really miss those spaghetti and mash potatoes time... onions with knives.... at choo's house.... =(
everytime i see car accident or newspapers' news... i will wonder whether i could live on after an incident?? i always got those kind of flashing mind or screen... like after i got bang by car, doing operation in the hospital... i have the will to live on because of her.... it's like i've drank some kind of potion that makes me love her so much... but i really duno how to express it out... it's like i wanna give everything of mine to her, my heart, my soul and my love.... but no matter what i'm thinking or what i'm blogging, she'll never know... and for now, i'm still suffering here... what should i do after NS?? where should i go after NS ?? what should i study?? so many question marks in my head running here and there... is it possible for me to put her aside and study really hard for few years?? I D K !!
when i work, i saw so many hot chicks and cute girls walk by... but i'm like totally not interested... i was wondering am i sick?? or feeling abnormal?? but end up she'll pop out again... my vision is just her... my fairy tale... my bedtime story.... is all her only.... everyday repeating the same work over and over again... just to earn money.... where should i use the money?? i also duno... really wish she'll know and feel it somehow someday somewhere sometime.... *big sigh*
everytime i see car accident or newspapers' news... i will wonder whether i could live on after an incident?? i always got those kind of flashing mind or screen... like after i got bang by car, doing operation in the hospital... i have the will to live on because of her.... it's like i've drank some kind of potion that makes me love her so much... but i really duno how to express it out... it's like i wanna give everything of mine to her, my heart, my soul and my love.... but no matter what i'm thinking or what i'm blogging, she'll never know... and for now, i'm still suffering here... what should i do after NS?? where should i go after NS ?? what should i study?? so many question marks in my head running here and there... is it possible for me to put her aside and study really hard for few years?? I D K !!
when i work, i saw so many hot chicks and cute girls walk by... but i'm like totally not interested... i was wondering am i sick?? or feeling abnormal?? but end up she'll pop out again... my vision is just her... my fairy tale... my bedtime story.... is all her only.... everyday repeating the same work over and over again... just to earn money.... where should i use the money?? i also duno... really wish she'll know and feel it somehow someday somewhere sometime.... *big sigh*
Sunday, January 4, 2009
Perfect??
Nothing on earth will be perfect.... if you will achieve that perfect state, then your life will be meaningless, cause you're best in everything, you got nothing to improve anymore, cause you're perfect... that's why our life no need to be perfect, as long as you're living happily can already... don't compare what you have with what the others have, be gladful and appreciates whatever you have... some ppl somewhere is living some harder life than you, so no point complaining bout your life... what you can do is try your best in everything you do...
Friday, January 2, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
the diary of 2008
during early year of 2008, there was this guy, a person who always tease one of his indian friend bout a girl... not long later, this guy notice he started to fall in love with that girl... his love started at a tv station, when they go for this group visit... this guy keep looking at that girl unconsciously... on the following weekend, he saw her once again at the stadium... and he got the chance to hang out with her gang... this guy started to notice everything she's doing hoping that he could understands her more... they went gasoline for lunch... and that's the place where the guy learnt what is a sky juice... damm funny, when he ask his friend, the friend thought he was joking, mana tahu end up he memang duno what is sky juice... after that, there was a pool side party, celebrating someone's birthday, her mom's nasi lemak was awesome, unstoppable once you started to eat !! during this party, this guy was emoing cause that girl was emoing too, cause of her high heels... the guy even remembered what she said on the phone... haha.... then there's this moon cake festival event thinge on a field... that's the best day on earth.... haha... this guy talked to the girl for like almost an hour without any interuption, until one girl come and ask us to finish her ribena jelly !! screw her !! nvm, and that's the day he failed to protect that girl from falling... she hurts til she's shivering, that guy felt before, just like how he fell from his bike going down hills.... everyone was scolding her for crying, but they never knew it was that hurt.... maybe sometimes she make things bigger, but she just wanted to get attention....
as a friend, have you asked yourself, am i a good friend?? i ask that everytime when i see other ppl down... everytime she was left aside....
ok, things getting harder and harder, that guy even tried to give up once... but he failed to do so cause he knew that he's already too deep inside... giving up her is like removing his oxygen tank 10km under water.... but again and again he got hurt.... he still haven give up.... until christmas eve, that's the night he really relief.... he felt so glad because she was there... safe and not injured... that night, he's like a cleaner keep cleaning and cleaning and cleaning the sprays around her, hoping she won't fall again like what happened during moon cake festival... he's blaming himself all the time because that time he was only 20cm from that girl..... after cleaning sprays, balik rumah kawan !! time falls away..... so fast it arrived the last day of 2008... he was so chicken, so loser, so lousy, so shit up, he's so useless that he was only standing beside her for half an hour and talked to her for like 3 sentences?? shit mann, this kind of guy can go die d... scared like some hell... also duno what so nice to afraid of... she's just she... what else can she be.... haiz... here comes 2009 and that ended our 2008
diary note : this guy will never give up til the last breath he respired!! it's too late to give up... maybe his friends was right.... he should be a monk after all....
as a friend, have you asked yourself, am i a good friend?? i ask that everytime when i see other ppl down... everytime she was left aside....
ok, things getting harder and harder, that guy even tried to give up once... but he failed to do so cause he knew that he's already too deep inside... giving up her is like removing his oxygen tank 10km under water.... but again and again he got hurt.... he still haven give up.... until christmas eve, that's the night he really relief.... he felt so glad because she was there... safe and not injured... that night, he's like a cleaner keep cleaning and cleaning and cleaning the sprays around her, hoping she won't fall again like what happened during moon cake festival... he's blaming himself all the time because that time he was only 20cm from that girl..... after cleaning sprays, balik rumah kawan !! time falls away..... so fast it arrived the last day of 2008... he was so chicken, so loser, so lousy, so shit up, he's so useless that he was only standing beside her for half an hour and talked to her for like 3 sentences?? shit mann, this kind of guy can go die d... scared like some hell... also duno what so nice to afraid of... she's just she... what else can she be.... haiz... here comes 2009 and that ended our 2008
diary note : this guy will never give up til the last breath he respired!! it's too late to give up... maybe his friends was right.... he should be a monk after all....
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