many ppl say our mood of the day is decided ourselves. whether we wan to be happy or depress. 2 options. of course many ppl want to be happy. even i do.
but everytime when you made the decision, there's always something happens and spoil your mood. which i dun really like it. i believe no one like it too. i tried my hardest to tell myself, no matter what happened, just think of forgiving. forgiveness is forever the greatest gift. because of 1 forgiveness, you could change someone's life forever. but for some ppl, the more you forgive the more action he/she is. because they think that whatever they did wrong, ppl will forgive them. sometimes, when you really feel like forgiving someone, when you think there's still hope in him/her, they will break your hopes. they just wanna be what they are.
i was so so so so angry, i'm trying my hardest to forgive whatever was wrong, and try to make it right. but why they must destroy what i'm having. which is the trust i had in them. now it's very hard for me to trust anyone anymore. they betrayed me again and again. what's the point having faith in between when they dun even appreciate it? what's the point of forgiving if they never change? what's the point forgiving them again and again and again just to let them repeat their mistakes?? do you know how sad am i when i've already forgiven someone but i'm still the one who got blamed? when i found someone who i can really trusted, i really feel like telling her everything i'm feeling or facing, but just dun wan to make her sad or guilty lo or really helpless seeing me like that. everyday every night every moment i'm thinking, should i continue what i am doing?? keep forgiving?? i've seen so many ppl keep repeating their mistakes, once~ twice~ thrice~ more than you could imagine. it's not just some small matters that no one care, i do care but i can do nothing.
i really admire a friend, he can be so tough and strong. maybe our living backgrounds are different. he can act like nothing is happening eventhough something really serious happened. but i still manage to see he's in problem la =) no one can hide their true feeling fully. but what he's doing is already great enough, super tough mann. i just can't do like how he did. haiz, most of the time i feel like exploding, sometimes even shouted in a wide field. because there, no one will care what i'm doing. but seriously, in school, no one will care also de la, how can they be so pure and naive?? din talk means emo?? talk much means happy?? where got such thing.... sometimes ppl din talk because they're being serious, sometimes ppl talk much because they're trying to avoid their problems.... why must ppl look things physically?? why must ppl look things with their eyes?? when you're around your friend, feel it mann, try to feel how they felt, dun just talk base on what you saw. sometimes what you saw is not the truth. just learn to look with your heart sometimes. =) you'll learn something new.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Friday, August 22, 2008
A Cloudless Night and A Starless Midnight
haha, today, attending rebecca's birthday party, haha
at first still very semangat and play like an idiot. haha after a short while, i duno why i like totally moodless, and i duno what i really wanna do at that moment, haha. i keep thinking and thinking and i look at the sky also, haha, time passes very fast.... and i manage to see a cloudless night and a starless midnight... haha if you notice, tonight only have 2 stars on the sky, 1 is bright while another is dimm. haha.. duno what does it mean also...sobz sobz
just so out of mood and really dun feel like playing at 1 moment, duno what happened also..haha
i try to drown myself with all my problems and i really duno what to do.... haiz..... until i sing out loud, haha. i really felt better after singing, some ppl say happy is the best medicine. haha when i sing i feel happy, and all my problems like sudden gone. haha. really feel so nice....sobz
many ppl keep comfort me but they duno what's happening cause myself also duno what is happening. haha. how could they know when myself dun even know....i just so mood out until i blog now. haha. i keep looking at the sky, like looking at my own past, everything keep flashing back. i duno why i've done so many idiot mistakes that i shouldn't do.
my mom said, our life's short. how many 10 years can you live?? i lived for only 1 10 years. causing so many problems d.... always argue with friends and fight with friends. my mom also said, meeting a friend is my fate. i should appreciate it cause we're arranged to meet each other. after thinking a short while, i think maybe i should think that way, i have so many friends caring for me. but duno la, sometimes some friends really make me like high blood pressure, headache and stuff. sometimes i really worry bout their life or rather future. they keep acting in a way that is abnormal. everyone knows and they ALL felt the same. they should really change their attitude. sobz felt so helpless at 1 moment and i really did my best on helping them and telling them what to do. wasted more than 10 hours lecturing a friend, teaching him how to study and stuff, end up, his own effort cannot be seen, still getting bad results, everyone has their problems, but dun bring it to your exam field la, it will affect everything. your result, your family, your life, future, just everything. dun giv excuses that you dun hav mood to study due to what's happening around. the other one, like dun treat ppl as friends, like living in his own world, when he needs them, call them out or ask them for help, when he dun need them, just ignore them. whenever he do something, it's like 1 out of 10000 things, he will think wisely? everytime ppl say bout his mistakes, angry like no one care. when he got blamed, also angry like no one care. keep exploding like a endless dynamite. if he notice someone saying his mistakes, he will hate that person. so sad huh?
for some ppl, they really face lots of problems, i duno why they're treated that way, but there must be a reason why is happening. i've seen many type of family, just duno why can't every family be the same... haha my brother could lend me a shoes that he, himself also haven wear because i'm going for a birthday party. but i can see my friend's sister stealing her birthday present, a pair of shoes just for an interview, interview only see your resume and your face(maybe), why you need to take ppl's shoes?? birthday present somemore. but maybe she's really desperate?? i dun really know what she's thinking. haha but i dun feel that her way of doing it is correct. but !! family ma, they should think for the siblings also ma, how often you receive a birthday present? did you felt before when your birthday present got stolen when you, yourself dun even have the chance to get the first try? i can't really know how it feels but from my friend's expression, i think it really suckz. cause i seldom receive birthday present also, always go out for a dinner or get ang paus or a cake lo. din really receive a PRESENT before. maybe young that time got la, cause i can't really remember what happened when i was young. ahah
maybe i'm a bad friend? always back stabbing ppl? i duno why, YAR ! i dun have the guts the say in front of you. because if i say in front of you, it will make you shameful or something?? if i express it here at least not the whole school knows?? i duno la, just dun feel like anyone understand me?? whatever i did seems to be wrong? just feel so so so not nice
at first still very semangat and play like an idiot. haha after a short while, i duno why i like totally moodless, and i duno what i really wanna do at that moment, haha. i keep thinking and thinking and i look at the sky also, haha, time passes very fast.... and i manage to see a cloudless night and a starless midnight... haha if you notice, tonight only have 2 stars on the sky, 1 is bright while another is dimm. haha.. duno what does it mean also...sobz sobz
just so out of mood and really dun feel like playing at 1 moment, duno what happened also..haha
i try to drown myself with all my problems and i really duno what to do.... haiz..... until i sing out loud, haha. i really felt better after singing, some ppl say happy is the best medicine. haha when i sing i feel happy, and all my problems like sudden gone. haha. really feel so nice....sobz
many ppl keep comfort me but they duno what's happening cause myself also duno what is happening. haha. how could they know when myself dun even know....i just so mood out until i blog now. haha. i keep looking at the sky, like looking at my own past, everything keep flashing back. i duno why i've done so many idiot mistakes that i shouldn't do.
my mom said, our life's short. how many 10 years can you live?? i lived for only 1 10 years. causing so many problems d.... always argue with friends and fight with friends. my mom also said, meeting a friend is my fate. i should appreciate it cause we're arranged to meet each other. after thinking a short while, i think maybe i should think that way, i have so many friends caring for me. but duno la, sometimes some friends really make me like high blood pressure, headache and stuff. sometimes i really worry bout their life or rather future. they keep acting in a way that is abnormal. everyone knows and they ALL felt the same. they should really change their attitude. sobz felt so helpless at 1 moment and i really did my best on helping them and telling them what to do. wasted more than 10 hours lecturing a friend, teaching him how to study and stuff, end up, his own effort cannot be seen, still getting bad results, everyone has their problems, but dun bring it to your exam field la, it will affect everything. your result, your family, your life, future, just everything. dun giv excuses that you dun hav mood to study due to what's happening around. the other one, like dun treat ppl as friends, like living in his own world, when he needs them, call them out or ask them for help, when he dun need them, just ignore them. whenever he do something, it's like 1 out of 10000 things, he will think wisely? everytime ppl say bout his mistakes, angry like no one care. when he got blamed, also angry like no one care. keep exploding like a endless dynamite. if he notice someone saying his mistakes, he will hate that person. so sad huh?
for some ppl, they really face lots of problems, i duno why they're treated that way, but there must be a reason why is happening. i've seen many type of family, just duno why can't every family be the same... haha my brother could lend me a shoes that he, himself also haven wear because i'm going for a birthday party. but i can see my friend's sister stealing her birthday present, a pair of shoes just for an interview, interview only see your resume and your face(maybe), why you need to take ppl's shoes?? birthday present somemore. but maybe she's really desperate?? i dun really know what she's thinking. haha but i dun feel that her way of doing it is correct. but !! family ma, they should think for the siblings also ma, how often you receive a birthday present? did you felt before when your birthday present got stolen when you, yourself dun even have the chance to get the first try? i can't really know how it feels but from my friend's expression, i think it really suckz. cause i seldom receive birthday present also, always go out for a dinner or get ang paus or a cake lo. din really receive a PRESENT before. maybe young that time got la, cause i can't really remember what happened when i was young. ahah
maybe i'm a bad friend? always back stabbing ppl? i duno why, YAR ! i dun have the guts the say in front of you. because if i say in front of you, it will make you shameful or something?? if i express it here at least not the whole school knows?? i duno la, just dun feel like anyone understand me?? whatever i did seems to be wrong? just feel so so so not nice
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Blame or to be blamed?
today is the 5th day of holiday and it's my 3rd day of having tuition.
the day started with my waking up late. haha, set alarm 7am but woke up at 730...=.=" totally can't hear the alarm. haha my mom woke me up as usual lo....
in the office, i took a short nap somewhere around 8am~9am...haha my teacher called me and say today's tuition for my class still on, but for her other classes all cancelled.
around 1045am, a friend of mine called me and say my class cancelled also, and ask me to inform everyone. i thought teacher told him last min, then i ask him to confirm with teacher. 10 mins later he called me again and say it's a confirm cancel d. so i inform almost half class of mine and he inform the other half. failed to contact 2 ppl, and we actually forgot another person. so sorry brother!! you always absent in tuition until i almost forgot bout you. XD
after that, this forgotten friend called me, why we ALL din go tuition?? our class din cancel. haiz
haiz, end up, luckily teacher is replacing it back.
when i call
forgotten friend : keep scolding like no one care, and whatever i said, he also reply it's not an excuse and bla bla bla
the one who informed me : keep saying, blame me la blame me la
end up i was so angry and upset. why it ended this way!!
this forgotten friend should thank me cause he got an extra class !! and he's like saying all that because it's my fault.
and the other guy asked me to STFU because i'm not in that kind of situation.
i keep wonder and wonder. what's the worst situation he could ever be in?
keep saying until like ppl din face problems before. everyone faces problems ok? and this is just a small matter, you wan everyone to hate you?? ppl scold you for your good. can't you take it as a lesson? must think that ppl hate you or what so ever?? ppl is telling your mistakes because they CARE FOR YOU. dun just simply scold you. if they really dun care, they won't even bother to scold you. what for wasting their energy and saliva?? think la PLEASE !!!!
you just keep saying bout yourself. did you think how guilty am i ? and did you think on my side?? you think you're the only one to be blamed ah?? i know my mistake by not confirming it with teacher. but you should know too. if you really continue this way, it's very hard for you to succeed in life mann. even if you succeed, you won't get any true friends. i'm serious and trying to give you advice. if you dun care, dun bother, i can do nothing else. i did my best to help you. sorry to say that, i'm not thinking i'm the best or what so example to follow, just learn from mistake please. keep blaming ppl or yourself is not a way.
if you wanna blame me, just blame la. i know my mistake. but please la, forgotten friend~ dun simply scold me like shit can or not?? it's not 100% my fault, aiyo!!
why life have to be so complicated??
the day started with my waking up late. haha, set alarm 7am but woke up at 730...=.=" totally can't hear the alarm. haha my mom woke me up as usual lo....
in the office, i took a short nap somewhere around 8am~9am...haha my teacher called me and say today's tuition for my class still on, but for her other classes all cancelled.
around 1045am, a friend of mine called me and say my class cancelled also, and ask me to inform everyone. i thought teacher told him last min, then i ask him to confirm with teacher. 10 mins later he called me again and say it's a confirm cancel d. so i inform almost half class of mine and he inform the other half. failed to contact 2 ppl, and we actually forgot another person. so sorry brother!! you always absent in tuition until i almost forgot bout you. XD
after that, this forgotten friend called me, why we ALL din go tuition?? our class din cancel. haiz
haiz, end up, luckily teacher is replacing it back.
when i call
forgotten friend : keep scolding like no one care, and whatever i said, he also reply it's not an excuse and bla bla bla
the one who informed me : keep saying, blame me la blame me la
end up i was so angry and upset. why it ended this way!!
this forgotten friend should thank me cause he got an extra class !! and he's like saying all that because it's my fault.
and the other guy asked me to STFU because i'm not in that kind of situation.
i keep wonder and wonder. what's the worst situation he could ever be in?
keep saying until like ppl din face problems before. everyone faces problems ok? and this is just a small matter, you wan everyone to hate you?? ppl scold you for your good. can't you take it as a lesson? must think that ppl hate you or what so ever?? ppl is telling your mistakes because they CARE FOR YOU. dun just simply scold you. if they really dun care, they won't even bother to scold you. what for wasting their energy and saliva?? think la PLEASE !!!!
you just keep saying bout yourself. did you think how guilty am i ? and did you think on my side?? you think you're the only one to be blamed ah?? i know my mistake by not confirming it with teacher. but you should know too. if you really continue this way, it's very hard for you to succeed in life mann. even if you succeed, you won't get any true friends. i'm serious and trying to give you advice. if you dun care, dun bother, i can do nothing else. i did my best to help you. sorry to say that, i'm not thinking i'm the best or what so example to follow, just learn from mistake please. keep blaming ppl or yourself is not a way.
if you wanna blame me, just blame la. i know my mistake. but please la, forgotten friend~ dun simply scold me like shit can or not?? it's not 100% my fault, aiyo!!
why life have to be so complicated??
Friday, August 15, 2008
lolz, awarenes
haha, i just notice i'm those really hot tempered ppl mann.
almost everyday i scolded ppl, haiz
but today, i realise something, whenever i scold, i'm scolding for their own good. but i used the wrong way. haha. maybe that's why they never learn. today art class, our art teacher scolded us for reaching art room late for 30 minutes. which is almost 1 period already. before that i keep scolding and rushing the classmates to line up and go to the room, but everyone just dun bother what i say and ignore me, keep talking, talking, talking like no one care. i know many ppl hate seni, but since we're taking it already, do it with our best la. it's not i'm emo or angry, i'm just doing my job ok?? i need to lock up the class room, that's why i'm always the last student. i really cannot stand anymore mann.
at least i know next time when i wanna tell them something, i should tell in a super polite way. =)
and i just realise i need to change all my passwords, she's no longer here. no point putting her name anymore. i think i'm kinda stupid when i think back how crazy i am bout her. almost thinking her every seconds. haiz, now... everything is gone. although i dun get to have her in my life, but i know and i'm glad to meet her in my life. everyone is special and i'll remember everyone =) so ya, time to change passwords =) it will take me a long time mann, more than 5 accounts is her name...haha....
almost everyday i scolded ppl, haiz
but today, i realise something, whenever i scold, i'm scolding for their own good. but i used the wrong way. haha. maybe that's why they never learn. today art class, our art teacher scolded us for reaching art room late for 30 minutes. which is almost 1 period already. before that i keep scolding and rushing the classmates to line up and go to the room, but everyone just dun bother what i say and ignore me, keep talking, talking, talking like no one care. i know many ppl hate seni, but since we're taking it already, do it with our best la. it's not i'm emo or angry, i'm just doing my job ok?? i need to lock up the class room, that's why i'm always the last student. i really cannot stand anymore mann.
at least i know next time when i wanna tell them something, i should tell in a super polite way. =)
and i just realise i need to change all my passwords, she's no longer here. no point putting her name anymore. i think i'm kinda stupid when i think back how crazy i am bout her. almost thinking her every seconds. haiz, now... everything is gone. although i dun get to have her in my life, but i know and i'm glad to meet her in my life. everyone is special and i'll remember everyone =) so ya, time to change passwords =) it will take me a long time mann, more than 5 accounts is her name...haha....
Thursday, August 14, 2008
i felt guilty and retarded
i feel guilty for someone who always try to find a topic and talk to me, but i've been ignoring for quite a long time d. my friends say i'm too kind, always bother stuff that i shouldn't bother. end up, i'm the one who suffer. because i feel bad when someone is trying to talk to me bout their things and i'm ignoring them. but then i decided to ignore her d. sorry to say la, i din mean to hurt you but i seriously cannot take it anymore. even i din reply your message you're still messaging me.
but on the other side, i feel really happy when she(different person already, not the above one) message me. i duno why but the topic she talks about, i always feel comfortable to reply. unlike the other one, keep asking bout my personal life de. haiz
oh! i felt that myself is kinda retard, mentally retarded. it's like, hardly for me to really make decisions. i always thought i'm one of those who fall in love quickly and easily, and give a lot in a relationship and dun expect much in return. but actually, i just noticed that i'm a person who fall in love quite hard, giv quite a lot in a relationship and expecting something in return. eventhough i'm saying i'm not expecting anything, but i noticed it d. haiz. sometimes i really wonder how can ppl just started a relationship so easily and when they break up, they're like din feel anything?? maybe that's what so called puppy love?? some relationship that can never last. sometimes i think myself is someone who really think way too far. now, i even thought of buying a house for her already. haha i always dream and dream, always never come true.
this few days i kinda depress also, knowing too much things. it's like i wanna talk bout him cannot, wanna talk bout her also cannot. cannot talk him in front of her and talk bout her in front of him?? i really scared i say something wrong and ppl will hate me for the rest of their life. that's why i'm trying to be the very best friend i could. i dun wan to disappoint ppl. sometimes i think that i'm way too kind, giving so many chances to ppl. but i really can do nothing anymore because they never learn. then i'll be evil. hating them, hurting them and stuff. which is what i feel like changing la... sometimes really cannot control that kind of feeling. like today, he just whack me for no reason, and i really piss off, i did something immature, which is hitting him back. ahah and he hit back me again....then i stopped, cause i dun feel that by whacking him i can feel happier.
and sometimes, i feel like i've let go many chances. i always like or really in love with someone but i never go for them. because i always afraid of rejections. i got rejected twice in my life. which took me around 4 months to recover from both rejections. cause i really can't take it easy. i always giv too much in something and expecting something with a high hope. that's why i'm the one who always got hurt. according to horoscope, not just daily but generally, gemini's plan always never go well. haha that's why if you have any party or gathering, dun ask gemini to plan k?? their plans always never go like how it was planned. no matter how hard i tried, the one i like will never like me. it's either they hated me a lot or they're too close to me. it's totally opposite.
there was once that a girl say to me : i have kinda good feeling on you, maybe you can try to impress me. end up i failed and we became good friends, haha. she always giv me advice on how to get close to girls. but as i said, hard for geminis to plan something. when i plan, i never get the result i wanted/wished. and i always fail to get a girl, sometimes i feel i kinda desparate to know how it feels when you're really in love with someone and she loves you too. i duno why, lots of ppl dun believe that i'm still having my first kiss and i never couple before. haha. i think sometimes i look like those brainless gangster, living on the earth without direction. duno what's my aim or my target living on earth. it's like i like someone i never go for her, i wanna do something so badly but i never did it.
and 1 more thing, in chinese we say 男人不坏，女人不爱。which means if guys are not naughty, girls won't like them. it's kinda hard for me to bully someone i like right?? but when i see some couple can be like so close by some little tricking. but i duno la, i never been close with girls. since i was small until now (still not big yet but i mean last time when i was younger la). i never know how to talk with a girl, i always feel nervous and my tongue will tie up before i get to speak, i duno la. duno how am i gonna face girls someday mann.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! so confused now!!! duno what should i do?!?!?
i'll just let it be how it is now la.....hope life will be better...haha =)
but on the other side, i feel really happy when she(different person already, not the above one) message me. i duno why but the topic she talks about, i always feel comfortable to reply. unlike the other one, keep asking bout my personal life de. haiz
oh! i felt that myself is kinda retard, mentally retarded. it's like, hardly for me to really make decisions. i always thought i'm one of those who fall in love quickly and easily, and give a lot in a relationship and dun expect much in return. but actually, i just noticed that i'm a person who fall in love quite hard, giv quite a lot in a relationship and expecting something in return. eventhough i'm saying i'm not expecting anything, but i noticed it d. haiz. sometimes i really wonder how can ppl just started a relationship so easily and when they break up, they're like din feel anything?? maybe that's what so called puppy love?? some relationship that can never last. sometimes i think myself is someone who really think way too far. now, i even thought of buying a house for her already. haha i always dream and dream, always never come true.
this few days i kinda depress also, knowing too much things. it's like i wanna talk bout him cannot, wanna talk bout her also cannot. cannot talk him in front of her and talk bout her in front of him?? i really scared i say something wrong and ppl will hate me for the rest of their life. that's why i'm trying to be the very best friend i could. i dun wan to disappoint ppl. sometimes i think that i'm way too kind, giving so many chances to ppl. but i really can do nothing anymore because they never learn. then i'll be evil. hating them, hurting them and stuff. which is what i feel like changing la... sometimes really cannot control that kind of feeling. like today, he just whack me for no reason, and i really piss off, i did something immature, which is hitting him back. ahah and he hit back me again....then i stopped, cause i dun feel that by whacking him i can feel happier.
and sometimes, i feel like i've let go many chances. i always like or really in love with someone but i never go for them. because i always afraid of rejections. i got rejected twice in my life. which took me around 4 months to recover from both rejections. cause i really can't take it easy. i always giv too much in something and expecting something with a high hope. that's why i'm the one who always got hurt. according to horoscope, not just daily but generally, gemini's plan always never go well. haha that's why if you have any party or gathering, dun ask gemini to plan k?? their plans always never go like how it was planned. no matter how hard i tried, the one i like will never like me. it's either they hated me a lot or they're too close to me. it's totally opposite.
there was once that a girl say to me : i have kinda good feeling on you, maybe you can try to impress me. end up i failed and we became good friends, haha. she always giv me advice on how to get close to girls. but as i said, hard for geminis to plan something. when i plan, i never get the result i wanted/wished. and i always fail to get a girl, sometimes i feel i kinda desparate to know how it feels when you're really in love with someone and she loves you too. i duno why, lots of ppl dun believe that i'm still having my first kiss and i never couple before. haha. i think sometimes i look like those brainless gangster, living on the earth without direction. duno what's my aim or my target living on earth. it's like i like someone i never go for her, i wanna do something so badly but i never did it.
and 1 more thing, in chinese we say 男人不坏，女人不爱。which means if guys are not naughty, girls won't like them. it's kinda hard for me to bully someone i like right?? but when i see some couple can be like so close by some little tricking. but i duno la, i never been close with girls. since i was small until now (still not big yet but i mean last time when i was younger la). i never know how to talk with a girl, i always feel nervous and my tongue will tie up before i get to speak, i duno la. duno how am i gonna face girls someday mann.
ahhhhhhhhhhhh!!! so confused now!!! duno what should i do?!?!?
i'll just let it be how it is now la.....hope life will be better...haha =)
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
oh?
i feel like blogging bout it but i won't.
it's better if i say it out with my own mouth. i've been curious'ing for so long and finally i got the answer.
if i could, i should. if i should, i would.
that's all i can say bout it.
it's better if i say it out with my own mouth. i've been curious'ing for so long and finally i got the answer.
if i could, i should. if i should, i would.
that's all i can say bout it.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
Sudden moodless
for some reason, i feel like blogging is somewhere for my friends to shoot another friend. seeing friends' blog used to be my hobby. for some reason again, i dun feel like reading in this few days. it's like everyone is hating everyone. knowing so many stuff is not easy. whenever i talk i feel stress now. it's like.....eventhough the 5 ppl is in front of me and talking together, but behind that, they're actually hating each other. but everyone is acting like nothing and forcing themselves to continue the conversation. i dun think friends should be that way.
my advice to some ppl : try to giv your friends chance, maybe you should think on their side, what they're facing, what they're doing or so on. sometimes they talk without using their brain, but forgive la or try to make her/him understand what she/he's doing was wrong. make them realise their mistake. sometimes it's rude to be so straight forward. but sometimes you really do it for their own good. whether they wanna take it as positive or negative only. what you did is good enough, let them be. you tried your best, so dun care bout what they say anymore.
to the other some ppl : try to be a good friend to your friends. dun be too selfish and think that everyone should care for you. ya, you're facing problems, but dun just blame everyone. sometimes it's not someone's fault or your fault. it's something happen naturally or planned by god? maybe god is testing us?? he/she is trying to make us learn more. because as we growing up, it's gonna be more and more problems coming to us. so, sometimes you really need to think for your friends too. yes! you're sharing your stuff with them because you cannot take it all on your own. but dun like blame them for not caring, sometimes you're being annoying because you chose the wrong time to talk bout it. or sometimes they're busy doing something else you just go in like that.
i hate who i am now. i know too many stuff d. some i dun ming knowing, but some really making me suffer. sobz, really wish someone is beside me now and lend me her shoulder...haha
my advice to some ppl : try to giv your friends chance, maybe you should think on their side, what they're facing, what they're doing or so on. sometimes they talk without using their brain, but forgive la or try to make her/him understand what she/he's doing was wrong. make them realise their mistake. sometimes it's rude to be so straight forward. but sometimes you really do it for their own good. whether they wanna take it as positive or negative only. what you did is good enough, let them be. you tried your best, so dun care bout what they say anymore.
to the other some ppl : try to be a good friend to your friends. dun be too selfish and think that everyone should care for you. ya, you're facing problems, but dun just blame everyone. sometimes it's not someone's fault or your fault. it's something happen naturally or planned by god? maybe god is testing us?? he/she is trying to make us learn more. because as we growing up, it's gonna be more and more problems coming to us. so, sometimes you really need to think for your friends too. yes! you're sharing your stuff with them because you cannot take it all on your own. but dun like blame them for not caring, sometimes you're being annoying because you chose the wrong time to talk bout it. or sometimes they're busy doing something else you just go in like that.
i hate who i am now. i know too many stuff d. some i dun ming knowing, but some really making me suffer. sobz, really wish someone is beside me now and lend me her shoulder...haha
Sunday, August 10, 2008
Way back into love~
i've been living with a shadow overhead.
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.
i've been lonely for so long.
Trapped in the past i just can't seem to move on.
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
just in case i ever need them again someday,
i've been setting aside time,
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.
All i wanna do is find a way back into love,
i can't make it through without a way back into love.
i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
i've been searching but i just don't see the signs.
i know that it's out there.
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.
i've been looking for someone to shed some light,
not somebody just to get me through the night
i could use some direction,
and i'm open to your suggestions.
All i wanna do is find a way back into love,
i can't make it through without a way back into love.
and if i open my heart to you,
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
and if you help me to start again,
you know that i'll be there for you in the end.
i really think this movie "Music and Lyrics" is very nice, you guys should watch it. i watched it 1 and a half year ago. now rewatch back, still think it's nice =) hehe
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed.
i've been lonely for so long.
Trapped in the past i just can't seem to move on.
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
just in case i ever need them again someday,
i've been setting aside time,
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind.
All i wanna do is find a way back into love,
i can't make it through without a way back into love.
i've been watching but the stars refuse to shine.
i've been searching but i just don't see the signs.
i know that it's out there.
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere.
i've been looking for someone to shed some light,
not somebody just to get me through the night
i could use some direction,
and i'm open to your suggestions.
All i wanna do is find a way back into love,
i can't make it through without a way back into love.
and if i open my heart to you,
i'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
and if you help me to start again,
you know that i'll be there for you in the end.
i really think this movie "Music and Lyrics" is very nice, you guys should watch it. i watched it 1 and a half year ago. now rewatch back, still think it's nice =) hehe
lyrics from a song that i found romantic.
I changed a bit to make it suits to my life. =)
It's never been easy for me,
to find words to go along with a melody,
But this time there's actually something on my mind,
so please forgive these few brief awkward lines.
Since i met you, my whole life has changed.
it's not just my schedule you've rearranged.
I was living in the past but somehow you've brought me back.
And i haven't felt like this since before Andrea said, Relax.
And though i know,
base on my track record.
I might not seem like the safest bet.
All i'm asking you, is don't write me off just yet.
For years i've been telling myself the same old story,
that i'm happy to live off my so-called former glories,
but you've given me a reason to take another chance,
now i need you despite the fact that you've changed my whole life.
And though i know,
i've already blown more chances than anyone should ever get
All i'm asking you, is don't write me off just yet.
Haha, that's all....it's a short song from a movie called Music and Lyrics =)
It's never been easy for me,
to find words to go along with a melody,
But this time there's actually something on my mind,
so please forgive these few brief awkward lines.
Since i met you, my whole life has changed.
it's not just my schedule you've rearranged.
I was living in the past but somehow you've brought me back.
And i haven't felt like this since before Andrea said, Relax.
And though i know,
base on my track record.
I might not seem like the safest bet.
All i'm asking you, is don't write me off just yet.
For years i've been telling myself the same old story,
that i'm happy to live off my so-called former glories,
but you've given me a reason to take another chance,
now i need you despite the fact that you've changed my whole life.
And though i know,
i've already blown more chances than anyone should ever get
All i'm asking you, is don't write me off just yet.
Haha, that's all....it's a short song from a movie called Music and Lyrics =)
Saturday, August 9, 2008
omg! i'm old ~ ~ ~
this morning something special happened.
but when i reach home and i wanna blog bout it, i totally forgot what happened !!! when it happens, the first thought in my mind was i must post it in my blog. end up i forgot what to post. haha. i no white hairs because i eat lots of fruits and veggie. i'm proud to say no one can eat more than me =) who wanna challenge eating veggie/fruits (note: not all veggie i eat, just 2/3 types i dun eat, fruit?? all DA BAO [100% finish it up mann]!!!! ) hahahaha but i wonder why i'm not skinny or healthy....sobz sobz
really feel boring today eventhough everyone is watching the Olympic 080808. when i look at the tv, i felt boring. nearly fall asleep also. sorry to be "potong" but really not interested. i duno why today is sooooooooooooo boring lar~~~~~~~~~
but when i reach home and i wanna blog bout it, i totally forgot what happened !!! when it happens, the first thought in my mind was i must post it in my blog. end up i forgot what to post. haha. i no white hairs because i eat lots of fruits and veggie. i'm proud to say no one can eat more than me =) who wanna challenge eating veggie/fruits (note: not all veggie i eat, just 2/3 types i dun eat, fruit?? all DA BAO [100% finish it up mann]!!!! ) hahahaha but i wonder why i'm not skinny or healthy....sobz sobz
really feel boring today eventhough everyone is watching the Olympic 080808. when i look at the tv, i felt boring. nearly fall asleep also. sorry to be "potong" but really not interested. i duno why today is sooooooooooooo boring lar~~~~~~~~~
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