I'm not Missing You.

if I can go back to the past,

I would choose not to know you at all.

it’s not that I regret

it’s because I can’t face

the fact that I’m without you.

from now on,

our happiness is no longer

relevant to each other.

the word “love” is actually

something so far from me until I couldn’t reach.

thinking of you quietly,

putting on some soft and smooth music.

your shadow is dim,

your face is blur,

but those won’t affect my emotions while I’m thinking of you.

I’m not missing you much,

just that when I’m happy I’ll thought of you,

you’re the first person that I wanted to share my happiness with.

I’m not missing you much

just that when I’m sad I’ll thought of you

you’re the first person that I wanted to express my sadness.

I’m not missing you much,

just that when I’m listening to songs I’ll thought of you from nowhere

there’s no reason why

it’s just that the lyrics are similar to you and me.

I’m not missing you much,

just that when I’m waking up in the morning I’ll thought of you from nowhere

there’s no reason why

it’s just that the person who appeared in my dream looked like you.

I’m not missing you much,

just that when I’m reading I’ll thought of you from nowhere

there’s no reason why

it’s just that the book’s main characters are similar to you and me.

I really din miss you so much

I only thought of you when I’m walking into some junctions

I only thought of you when I’m half way watching movie

I only thought of you when I’m half way listening songs

I really din miss you so much,

I only thought of you when I don’t want to think of you

This is good

I’m not thinking bout you

I just thought of you until my eyes are watery.

missing you,

but I’m afraid to let you know

that’s why dare not and won’t bother you.

I’m only keeping your smses in my phone,

bringing them out and read them again when I miss you

reading them slowly and feel it with details

after that, I will smile but sad at the same time.

I’m only keeping your favourite songs

never wanted to delete them

because those few “normal’ songs

I can play them again when I miss you

reminding me bout the past.

I’m only waiting for your sms at this quiet and silence night

when it arrives, there’s a kind of excitement in the heart

but I only reply with normal greetings without those excitement

funny jokes, funny arguments

if it don’t arrive,

it somehow brought disappointment

then I’ll sleep with a half dreaming half conscious mood.

the days without you,

I can only work hard to keep update with you

acting like there’s nothing

but after that I’m listening to what they said bout you

and carve those things bout you into my mind

I’m always loving you more than you can imagine

but I just can’t tell you.

lifting up my head to see the clouds of this city

breathing the air in this city

can also make me thought of you.

thinking that those clouds and air will move to your side

even if so

my heart is still warmly….

this moment,

I’m thinking of you

but only thinking of you

and not bothering you

miss you, but not disturbing/bothering you

it’s because I really love you.