the sobness and anger

yesterday was my first time tearing while reading someone's blog... it's so touching... it must be hard for him to went through so many things....

after reading his blog, i realise i'm kinda same?? but obviously i'm not, because she WAS in love with him and my case is she's not even in love with me... >.< it's a big decision to make, no matter how brave a person is.... it's really hard to make such decision... but i'm not making the same decision as his... he chose to let the girl go and let her happy....me le... i decided not to talk bout it anymore until she's ready or something... because i just couldn't afford to see her like this anymore... i dun wan to see any sad, angry or rather unwilling expressions from her anymore... even though it's hard to make such decision, but i just wish to see her happy smile rather than the sad or angry face... she possessed a nice smile and she should always hang it out... today, i saw that unwilling face once again... just like what happened before going in to watch the luckiest man... i guess not many ppl know bout it... heh...

i will always protect you, and that's why i always walk behind you, it's not i wanna stalk or what so ever, just in case if there's anything happen from the back, you'll be protected... it's not i dun wan to talk, it's because i'm never serious... whatever came out from my mouth is lame... just wish to see your smile always =)

but seriously... sometimes i really cannot stand all the people around cause they keep making fun of it... what's the big deal?? even i'm walking beside her, doesn't mean there's anything between me and her right?? why must ppl do that kind of stupid face and say those stupid things?? i dun care how much it hurts me... but can you all please respect her?? so what if i like her?? so what if i dun grab my chance?? mind your own business la... seriously cannot stand wei...

tomorrow we're going to genting... having fun for 3 days and 2 nights?? i hope it will be fun la... really dun wanna see anyone angry or sad... today i'm so piss off until my eyes turned red.... i do have enough sleep last night, so i dun think it's lack of sleep... ppl should realise i'm damm quiet today, but only after tesco i guess?? cause it happened during tesco... >.<

i tears'ed and i fist'ed, mixing feelings, sobbing and anger... all over my mind

wish you all the best during this genting trip, and wish you'll have all the fun... dun wanna see you feeling down anymore...