i thought~

i thought everything will be ended...
i thought that i won't see her again anymore...
i though what i did was the best i could...

it's hard to kill a heart that's full of love when that someone is just so near... the best way is not seeing her anymore... i seriously wanted to control my heart... should i??? it's so suffering doing things this way... seriously, i duno what to do mann.... i really thought everything can just let go like that... but the feeling still held in my heart... it's not just that kind of love love talking or feeling... it's something deep inside the heart... haiz....

i thought i won't get hurt anymore...
i thought i could let go
i thought i won't bother it anymore....

someone please tell me what should i do... i'm seriously lost