i'm starting to feel like AN Edward Cullen... i'm thinking of only her everyday when i'm working, no matter i'm at the working place, home, or even when i'm sleeping, i'll think and dream bout her, it's like how Edward Cullen thirst for Bella's blood... haha... how i wish i could see her sleep like how Edward did on Bella.... seeing her at times is like kinda not enough sometimes... i really wish i could protect her like how Edward protected Bella from the car accident... but that moon cake festival night... i failed... just like how Edward failed to protect Bella from James... how nice if i could possess those powers of Edward by not being a vampire... but it's just movie... haiz.... of course i'm not that kind of handsome ppl like Edward, some ppl say he's not handsome... depends lah... i'll just follow my opinion lah~ i think he's a handsome guy and i'm not la !! it's kinda cool if i could live forever to protect her forever huh?? now everyday i'm thinking, seriously... should i not go back kampung during CNY to teman her here?? should i dun go college and go form 6 to teman her?? or i should go college so i could get a better cert and a better life so i can give her a better life?? no matter what am i thinking or what am i doing, it will relate to her in the end... it's like no her no life.... really miss those spaghetti and mash potatoes time... onions with knives.... at choo's house.... =(
everytime i see car accident or newspapers' news... i will wonder whether i could live on after an incident?? i always got those kind of flashing mind or screen... like after i got bang by car, doing operation in the hospital... i have the will to live on because of her.... it's like i've drank some kind of potion that makes me love her so much... but i really duno how to express it out... it's like i wanna give everything of mine to her, my heart, my soul and my love.... but no matter what i'm thinking or what i'm blogging, she'll never know... and for now, i'm still suffering here... what should i do after NS?? where should i go after NS ?? what should i study?? so many question marks in my head running here and there... is it possible for me to put her aside and study really hard for few years?? I D K !!
when i work, i saw so many hot chicks and cute girls walk by... but i'm like totally not interested... i was wondering am i sick?? or feeling abnormal?? but end up she'll pop out again... my vision is just her... my fairy tale... my bedtime story.... is all her only.... everyday repeating the same work over and over again... just to earn money.... where should i use the money?? i also duno... really wish she'll know and feel it somehow someday somewhere sometime.... *big sigh*
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