5 days without blogging??

am i that busy until i din blog for 5 days?? haha

nah ~ i'm not busying with anything though.... just been thinking bout stuff lately... and dun really feel like blogging cause i dun hav any mood to do so?? haha...

what am i thinking ??

i'm just thinking bout
- National Service
- Subject/course that i wanted to take in college?? actual science seems to be a very hard and costly subject... ppl say need talent and "hardworkingness"... i dun even know what is it... haha... and ACCA ?? sooooo many ppl say it would be a super boring subject and it's no longer secondary school's accounting... it's something even more boring.... LOL... am i that bad?? only good in maths but nothing else?? don't i have any hidden abilities?? haha... dreaming again...
- form 6?? is it a good choice?? erm... when i was working, i met 2 lecturer, they suggested me form 6... they say form 6 is better than college, because

form 6's cert is what you're working for
college's cert is what you're buying for

so they say, if i'm ready to be A hardworking person, i should take form 6... hmm... thinking ~ thinking ~ thinking ~
- love?? i really dun wan to think bout this matter now... as in i have
no job (stable income),
no love (i dun even know how to love YET, let it come later lo),
no time?? (as i'll be really busy if i'm really into studies)
aiya, excuses la me.... the only reason i dun wan to think bout it is this love thing really confusing me... i dun even know am i loving her or just treating her as someone who really understands me?? for all this while, i just wanted my special one to be an understanding person... and now i found one... but... just so hard ya... =) my friend say easy come easy go, if hard come then hard to go lo... so i'll take it first lo, if she's so hard to come, then she'll be hard to go... haha =) and i duno how long i can stand, for knowing something that someone's doing.... hell lot more and better than what i did.... it's just so hard to get through.... seeing all the realities.... aiya !! duno lah !! why am i thinking so hard !! just let it be lah !! dammit !!

4 things can make me busy for 4 days?? haha... not really lah~ i watched jaws 1, jaws 2, another cinderella story, evolution, high school musical 3, and lots of anime cosplay on youtube... they're so cool, but some ppl really need to work harder on their costumes and make ups... haha... they dun even look alike to the anime character, sorry to say that...