missing through the universe?

1. 2 days ago... i suddenly have this flashing image through my mind... it was her who appeared... i really missed her at that moment for some reasons which i don't know... then "she" smsed me asking me am i talking bad bout her because she just sneezed... haha... i didn't know something so funny can happen... when i really miss her until some point, she'll sneeze... i was thinking, was it a coincidence? or i'm really missing her... did i really miss her until she sneezes?

2. as i was thinking where to have my lunch just now... i thought of "her"... i thought of the dragonfruit ice blended that she ordered the other day... so, i decided to go there and eat... once i sat down, i look at the menu, i flipped to the page of ice blended drinks... it cost RM3.50, at that moment... i realise... i couldn't afford it... haha... my friend asked me what to eat... i asked her to order what "she" ordered last time... it really reminds me of her at some point... half way eating... a song of S.H.E.'s played... memories... images... are getting more... suddenly... i heard "her" laughters... i thought i was missing her too much until i'm hearing something that others don't... i looked around... i noticed "she"'s just sitting at the end of the other corner... i was thinking, was it a coincidence again? or i'm just really missing her... did i really miss her until she appears?

finally knew, finally realised

just like the title above... i finally found out something that i should've find it out long long time ago...

all this while, i thought when i like someone, i should treat her as good as i can and wish to be with her most of the time... but... after what happened last night and few nights back... i realised... treating her good isn't showing that i love her... it's more like making her to feel bad... because she dun love me or love me yet... treating her too nice will just make some other ppl jealous or started to criticize bout her cause in other ppl's view or eyes, they just see that i'm treating her good and she doesn't know how to appreciate those things i've done for her... i never blamed her or hated her for not accepting me, because before this i've already found out that she has her rights to make her own decisions and choices...

probably treating her good... is what i should do after get to couple with her? but i really dunno what to do or what else i can do to express my feelings... and it feels really suck when you get to know that she's not really that happy when you're around her... i always say i treat everyone the same... not just towards the person i like... and that's the fact too... but when things starting to get obvious... and ppl around me just starting to fool themselves even more... so what if i liked her? so what if i'm treating her good or better than you? the fact is, you guys started to avoid me to crate chances for me... you guys dun even know what's happening between me and her... what you all do are just keep giving comments over what you've saw...

to be honest, if you ask me any questions or any favors, i'll do whatever i can to help you. not just towards the person i like but everyone around me... stop saying me putting the girl over my friends la... ask yourself mann, did you even bother to ask me questions when you really dunno how to do?? did you really ask me to do any favor for you when you needed someone's help?? gosh mann... grow up lar... stop being so childish and so curious !! what the heck you can do after knowing the truth? after knowing what you wanna know ?!?!?!? gosh !! i really hate it when i'm treating other ppl good but you ppl just dun giv a dam on what i did for you guys... yeah, you also know how to say she dun like things to be so obvious and she dun like things to go that fast... but look at yourself !! what you're doing?!?! try to think again before anything happens mann... is it very fun to take others' relationship and joke bout it?? respect yourself and respect others please !! stop fooling yourself around like what !!!

yeah, i'm pissed off... do i look like i dun hav temper at all?? gosh !! make sure you guys know the limit before it went over !! that would be tooo late !!!


EVERY TIME HAPPEN THE SAME THING, WHY WON'T YOU GET SICK OF IT?? OR WHAT YOU WANT ME TO DO ?!?!?!

11th June 2010 = a WTF day

well, everything were nice until evening time... haiz... there were aunties blocking me ==" 1 dun let me cut her even though i put signal for quite long d, she purposely speed up some more right after i put signal... the other one worse...

i was trying to U-turn but i got forced to the 2nd lane from the right... and at traffic, i try to cut her slowly cause i really have to U-turn... so i signal and slowly move forward, mana tahu she go Gear-1 then move forward also, then looked at me, she smiled then laugh... then her daughter at the back seat also laughing... from her expression, she's telling her daughter that she's not gonna let me go... and she's telling me, dun think you youngsters can drive like how you want... HELLO~ i got forced to mid lane wei, i signal before that, but the other aunty purposely speed up to block me, the other one, purposely move forward to block me... really oh my gosh wei... luckily no accident happen there mann...

haiz... just this 2 incidents made my day miserable... dammit... why can't ppl just let me go?? hello~ i signal already, and i slowly move, not like i purposely drive fast and stop in front of you to force you letting me pass... please lar, i know you're aunty and i'm youngster, but please dun do this kind of stuff again lar... it's so dangerous you know ?!?!? and letting me pass it's like.. just 5seconds!! gosh... i really hate ppl who dun signal... if it's not useful, why the heck they put this thinge?? and what's the point for you to signal when your car already 60% out from your lane!! what the hell mann, human nowadays are getting stupid and lack of logical thinking... haiz... i know everyone think from different view, maybe in their view i'm just some reckless youngster driver...

wrong guess

haha, bout the previous post, i guessed it wrongly, o.O they din know each other until they get to this college. ^^ well, nothing much though... just feel kinda unlucky for the previous week cause almost everyday my lrt/ktm got delayed... and on thursday, when i go by car, there's even road block ==" made me late for my class for 16 minutes.... and today, nothing's wrong ==" i reached college at 845am but my class at 1030am, and now i'm so sleepy =="

college

haha, i started my college life like last week?? and now i'm blogging in the citc of my college... ^^

well... i'm lucky to like know almost all my tutorial ppl already... basically more than 50% of them already knew each other before coming in to this tutorial class... hehe.... cause more than 50 % of them are from pahang and i guess they're from the same secondary school... hehe... it makes my life easier to get to know more ppl because most of them already knew each other... ^^

i'm actually doing my HOMEWORK now cause i forgot bout it for like whole week?? ==" din expect to have homework for now... should remind myeslf to do homework next time already... if not everytime rush in college isn't something good.. haha! it's no longer secondary where you can postpone your due dates and deadlines.. =( used to be lazy and really lazy... guess i really need to start to be hardworking and do all my homeworks.. ^^

"friends"

i guess i've misunderstood the word above... i guess ever since the first moment this word was introduced into my life, i got it wrongly, until today, i finally realise what's a friend, and how to be a friend... i was making mistakes all the time =(

A friend is suppose to accept who you are instead wanting you to be who they want. maybe i was a bad friend after all, i've never make decisions... i've never know how to make decisions until today... until someone told me that i shouldn't be this way anymore... until someone told me that i should really start thinking for my own future instead of satisfying everyone around me... i always say i'm borned to help... but now only i realise i wasn't helping, i'm doing something wrong all this while...

A friend is suppose to help the other friend when he needed some help. BUT not always helping other friends to solve their problems... everyone has to learn how to handle what they're facing... and i really made a wrong decisioni today =( maybe it's just the old me, i need to renew myself really soon =) no man is an island, but every man should learn how to be independent instead of being dependent. there are times that you'll be facing troubles alone, with no supports, with no opinions, with no advices, that's the time you have to think and decide totally base on your own.

A friend is suppose to share stuff with another instead of keep saying bout one's problems. it's true there are listeners, they prefer listening more than expressing. but, they're just prefering... i'm sure they need someone else for them to express also right? they just need the right person with the right moment... not everyone like to express, at times like this, as a friend, we must strengthen our observation, observe better and be the man, do the right thing. >.<

i really dunno what are friends suddenly, blank in the mind.... haiz...

so many things going around...

damm! really hate this kinda feeling !!

something wrong?

i always felt blessed when i'm driving, that's why i'm really glad

but recently, i somehow felt dangerous? i nearly killed a cat, i nearly killed a frog.

dunno ler... haha

recently do what also like no mood, no energy... play game also like no soul.... like a living corpse

maybe just too much to think of XD

L O V E

about love :

don't always expect for a better one, appreciate the current one cause it's the best.

don't always think that you're still young, you can always marry later. love isn't bout your age.

don't give up because you're far apart with your love one, love will always be with you when you believe.

don't give up because the other half is not rich, as long as he's not useless, working hard will make you rich some day.

don't give up because your parents don't support your love, you'll realise that you regret forever.

about love :

the more pure the better

only couple once in a life is the best

if you

- experienced too much, you'll lost your interest in it.

- break up too many times, you'll get used to it.

- change too many boy girl friends, you'll start comparing.

in the end, you won't believe in true love anymore,

you'll start blaming yourself,

you'll be like a living corpse, with no purpose or directions in life

and lastly,

you'll end up marrying someone you don't love and spent the rest of your life with him/her.

Success?

there are some things success is not, it's not fame, it's not money, it's not power..

success is waking up in the morning, so excited about what you have to do, that you literally fly out the door. it's getting to work with people you love.

success is connecting with the world and making people feel. it's finding a way to bind together people who have nothing in common but a dream. it's falling asleep at night knowing you did the best job you could.

success is joy and freedom and friendship.

and success is love

me ?

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence.
You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean.
You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth
People like you because you are so straightforward
You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
You like serious
Smart
Determined people
You don't judge a book by its cover
So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt
Behave seductively
The opposite sex finds this very attractive
That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
You listen to your own instincts
Tend to follow your heart
So you will probably end up with an unusual job

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
You need to choose something
Go for it to be happy
Achieve success

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life
You are content with what you have
Think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Independence is important to you