college

haha, i started my college life like last week?? and now i'm blogging in the citc of my college... ^^

well... i'm lucky to like know almost all my tutorial ppl already... basically more than 50% of them already knew each other before coming in to this tutorial class... hehe.... cause more than 50 % of them are from pahang and i guess they're from the same secondary school... hehe... it makes my life easier to get to know more ppl because most of them already knew each other... ^^

i'm actually doing my HOMEWORK now cause i forgot bout it for like whole week?? ==" din expect to have homework for now... should remind myeslf to do homework next time already... if not everytime rush in college isn't something good.. haha! it's no longer secondary where you can postpone your due dates and deadlines.. =( used to be lazy and really lazy... guess i really need to start to be hardworking and do all my homeworks.. ^^

"friends"

i guess i've misunderstood the word above... i guess ever since the first moment this word was introduced into my life, i got it wrongly, until today, i finally realise what's a friend, and how to be a friend... i was making mistakes all the time =(

A friend is suppose to accept who you are instead wanting you to be who they want. maybe i was a bad friend after all, i've never make decisions... i've never know how to make decisions until today... until someone told me that i shouldn't be this way anymore... until someone told me that i should really start thinking for my own future instead of satisfying everyone around me... i always say i'm borned to help... but now only i realise i wasn't helping, i'm doing something wrong all this while...

A friend is suppose to help the other friend when he needed some help. BUT not always helping other friends to solve their problems... everyone has to learn how to handle what they're facing... and i really made a wrong decisioni today =( maybe it's just the old me, i need to renew myself really soon =) no man is an island, but every man should learn how to be independent instead of being dependent. there are times that you'll be facing troubles alone, with no supports, with no opinions, with no advices, that's the time you have to think and decide totally base on your own.

A friend is suppose to share stuff with another instead of keep saying bout one's problems. it's true there are listeners, they prefer listening more than expressing. but, they're just prefering... i'm sure they need someone else for them to express also right? they just need the right person with the right moment... not everyone like to express, at times like this, as a friend, we must strengthen our observation, observe better and be the man, do the right thing. >.<

i really dunno what are friends suddenly, blank in the mind.... haiz...

so many things going around...

damm! really hate this kinda feeling !!

something wrong?

i always felt blessed when i'm driving, that's why i'm really glad

but recently, i somehow felt dangerous? i nearly killed a cat, i nearly killed a frog.

dunno ler... haha

recently do what also like no mood, no energy... play game also like no soul.... like a living corpse

maybe just too much to think of XD

L O V E

about love :

don't always expect for a better one, appreciate the current one cause it's the best.

don't always think that you're still young, you can always marry later. love isn't bout your age.

don't give up because you're far apart with your love one, love will always be with you when you believe.

don't give up because the other half is not rich, as long as he's not useless, working hard will make you rich some day.

don't give up because your parents don't support your love, you'll realise that you regret forever.

about love :

the more pure the better

only couple once in a life is the best

if you

- experienced too much, you'll lost your interest in it.

- break up too many times, you'll get used to it.

- change too many boy girl friends, you'll start comparing.

in the end, you won't believe in true love anymore,

you'll start blaming yourself,

you'll be like a living corpse, with no purpose or directions in life

and lastly,

you'll end up marrying someone you don't love and spent the rest of your life with him/her.

Success?

there are some things success is not, it's not fame, it's not money, it's not power..

success is waking up in the morning, so excited about what you have to do, that you literally fly out the door. it's getting to work with people you love.

success is connecting with the world and making people feel. it's finding a way to bind together people who have nothing in common but a dream. it's falling asleep at night knowing you did the best job you could.

success is joy and freedom and friendship.

and success is love

me ?

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence.
You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean.
You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth
People like you because you are so straightforward
You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking:
You like serious
Smart
Determined people
You don't judge a book by its cover
So good-looking people aren't necessarily your style
This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person
And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt
Behave seductively
The opposite sex finds this very attractive
That's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms
But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas
You listen to your own instincts
Tend to follow your heart
So you will probably end up with an unusual job

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular
You need to choose something
Go for it to be happy
Achieve success

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life
You are content with what you have
Think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble
You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself
Independence is important to you

again

seeing you again... reminded me why i loved you at the first place...

maybe it's not because i dun love you anymore...

seeing you again... i realised... i really did loved you...

maybe it's just i'm forced to let you go for a happy ending...

i dunno what else i could do when i'm at the helpless end...

i dunno what else i could do when everything is not under my control...

maybe letting you go was my only choice...

letting you go so everyone of us... will have a different thinking...

feeling's really funny at times...

really can't guarantee...

haiz... love...

human

human... so many negative attitudes...

i really hate

ppl who already received free gifts, and still ask for more? they dun think for ppl who's after them

ppl who ask for free gifts, then say free gift not nice, not good quality... it's already free, still complain so much

ppl who visited other stores then come and tell me... like "i saw where only selling for how much how much, why here more expensive" or "you sell so expensive, who want to buy? other place only selling how much how much" (fyi, i'm just a promoter, not the boss who decided all these prices)

ppl who simply scold me when it's obviously not my fault (i dun know when the price will drop? when the price will increase? if you felt that it's cheap, then just buy la!! i know economy not good, but what the hell i can do if the price still drop after you bought it!! it's not like i purposely scam your damm money!! the worse part is, i even got scolded because the price of a carton dropped 20 cents!! WTH MANN !! 20 cents!! 24 cans, not even a cent for each can and you scold me for like half an hour ?!?! what's your problem!!)

ppl who dunno how to appreciate my assistance (HELLO~ i'm wearing my company's shirt, why the hell you scold me when you can't find your BISCUIT, MILK or whatever shit!! i'm already trying my best to help you ask around, search around, and even help you to que up! and you scolded me because you can't get to buy the DAMM OFFER ITEMS ?!?! HUMAN !! use your damm brain la!! or open your damm eyes to see my SHIRT!! hate hearing this the most "you work here you and dunno anything?!?!" PLEASE LAR!! open your eyes, open your brain !! WTH IS WRONG WITH PPL !!)

ppl who accuse me like no one's business (hate ppl say "if you dun hav stocks, dun advertise on the newspaper" oh please... FIRSTLY, i dun sell them! i'm just helping you to search what you want, SECONDLY, you come so late and you expect ppl having endless supply? you think supplier waiting inside the store room? THIRDLY, we ordered but the stock's not here yet, is it my fault for not receiving the ordered stocks? please lar, use brain la... FOURTHLY, i'm not the one who advertise those stuff on newspaper!! scold me like what?!?! scold me for what?!?!)

ppl who's nice to you when you're helping them, then they changed to some bitches when you failed to help them (worst human being, speechless bout it)

ppl who's complaining when you're already helping them (it's like, help them to carry to their car but they complain you walk slow, GOSH !! try to carry those on your hands!! and try to walk as fast as me!! shit wei... what's the world turning into?)

stress ahh !! but there's no such job on earth that you dun hav to deal with human, every single thing will be related to human... GOSH !!! feel like smacking something!!

Currently not available...

everyday working 9am to 11pm...

waking at 6am everyday and sleeping as soon as i finished my shower... haha

expecting some posts from me?

maybe after i work... cause i have so much to blog bout my new ff aka female friend or some ppl call it gf aka girl's friend >.< haha....

definitely still single...

=P

dreaming nightmares

ahh, lately... nightmares...

dream....

always started with a party... everyone play play drink drink drunk drunk.... then i wanna go toilet... while i'm peeing... my surrounding gets darker and darker and darker until i can't even see my own hand... suddenly... a small and weak light glowing in front of me... suddenly !! a face appeared from the light... the face keep looking at me and staring at me... and i keep praying until i finish peeing... after that i zip up my pants then try to walk off, that face of light followed me... wherever i go, he'll follow me ... after i left the toilet, i wanted to go back to the party... but everyone just disappeared... suddenly the house became so dusty and so creepy and spooky like no one's here for long... then i ran out from the house... it's a big endless green field... but all the grass are full of dust... gosh... also dunno how to describe... but somehow... the ghost... is helping me to watch my back... and giving me light at a darkest point...

something might be bad when you look at them physically... but... sometimes... you just can't judge anything by just seeing them... i... really wish my dream is telling me that everything's gonna be fine... maybe things are bad for now... they'll be better later on... never had a dream come true deeply described me now... everybody got something... they have to leave behind.... one regret from yesterday, that just seems to grow with time.... there's no use looking back or wondering... how it could be now or might have been... oh this i know but still i can't find ways to let you go...

i failed to kill my emotions... i failed to seal up my emotions... maybe, they're suppose to be there... keep forcing them to leave... i'll end up getting nothing