thinking

it's time to start appreciating what we have instead of being jealous of what the others have...

sometimes we just dunno how lucky we are actually... for experiencing something different than the others... or having something some other ppl dun hav... there's many 1 and only thing on earth... maybe you having 1 of those? just try to listen more from others... you'll realise how lucky you are... you'll be appreciating instead of complaining... be grateful, be glad that you have those memories, experiences, special stuff, hand made gifts, presents from friends...

think
- how many ppl din receive birthday present before
- how many ppl din celebrate their birthday with a cake and wishes
- how many ppl din attend or have a party for their birthday before
- how many ppl actually get to celebrate his/her birthday with a bunch of friends? (if you had, you should be grateful that your friends cared for you, instead of thinking why they care for you last time but not now?)

everyone has their life and their own problems, they can't stay beside us all the time, we just have to learn how to face problems on our own...

that's all for today, just thought of this =P

11th October 2009

it was a blast !! it started quite bad... cause me and kean lip were late for the gather time, which is 11am 11min 11sec but we arrived at 12pm 05min =( nvm... we're forgiven by the 3 misses and mr tee... haha...

went gasoline for our brunch... hmm... whole meal we're talking bout the waitress there... got 1 waitress, she's beautiful and sweet~ her voice... gosh... hear d feels like hearing it again... haha !! too bad she only like, give us the menu and take the menu from us... after that din see her d... the food was served by some other girl... me and my other friend keep like... err... wanted to see her... LOL... end up we only meet her when we're leaving the gasoline... her image still in my mind... haha... in gasoline, 1 of my friend like... crazy !! keep taking our pictures and laugh on her own... even when we take her picture, she also laugh non-stop... the funniest expression from her is " it's gonna explode !! " ... lolz

after our lunch, we meet up with sam !! oops, why is he empty handed?? no clothes?? how are we going to lagoon then?? >.< accompanied sam to buy the "equipments" and went in lagoon after that... hehe... inside there, gosh... our ms crazies... all keep laughing non-stop... made me keep laughing too, but almost vomit ==" it was a fun day =) never regret going for it ... hehe...

if you know mandarin, might as well visit my mandarin blog... =) i can describe with more feelings i guess.... cause the whole happening was in mandarin form... haha... my blog link is on the right =)

trust ?

hehe, define trust?? hard question...

if base on dictionary,

1. Firm reliance on the integrity, ability, or character of a person or thing.
2. Custody; care.
3. Something committed into the care of another; charge.
4. Reliance on something in the future; hope.

1. To have or place confidence in; depend on.
2. To expect with assurance; assume
3. To believe: I trust what you say.
4. To place in the care of another; entrust.
5. To grant discretion to confidently6. To extend credit to.

this is what you'll get...

trust, to me... it's a new word... as in my life... i'm seldom expose to such thing called trust... because it's just too hard to believe that such thing still exist... ppl around... will just keep ignoring the faith you've put on them, and just keep on betraying you with your "trust" on them... the more you trusted them, the easier they "use" you, everyone is taking advantages around... putting trust on someone, it's just so not a right thing to do... i've been betrayed again and again... i'm losing my trust on others, but i still believe that ppl will realise... how much they've hurt me... how much faith i put on them... and i do agree with my friend, once you know your trust has been betrayed... it hurts our heart and soul really badly... i don't know what else i could say bout trust... seriously... it's fading in my dictionary....

L I F E

what you understand bout this 4 alphabets ?? you're living in it for how long?? do you really understand what it is ??

life is something that we MUST live in?? can anyone separate themselves with life ?? no way mann... once your life is gone, your person is gone too... and life... isn't something we can really control, we can only make changes... but sometimes... what's going to happen, it's going to happen too... we can't change it... and guess what... the hardest part of life is life itself... because life isn't predictable, we can't prepare to face what we gonna face... that's why we have friends, that's why we have family... family... somewhere for you to learn before you going further in the future... bad or good... all start from the family... train yourself before you expose yourself to the real world... the real REAL world... ppl work smart... ppl dun work hard... sometimes, certificates aren't that important...

so many ppl succeed without having high educations level... so many ppl created things without learning much in school... life... no one say it's going to be easy... ppl only say take it easy... because everyone know life's hard and life's what we, only ourselves can solve in our own life... problems in life... ppl around can only guide you, suggest you, assist you, in the end, you'll still have to solve it on your own will and effort... never make life hard for yourself, ppl~

surrounding is our biggest enemy in life, but it can be our best friend too... many things will happen around us, you wanna take it as lesson, or take it as test, or wanna make it something that bring you down, it's up to you... what's most close to you? family... you spend most of your time with them for now... that's why we have learn, practise, and realise how hard to run a family... just try to CREATE any lessons you can from what's happening around...

argue - try to get some points in it... even sometimes you feel that, they're arguing for nothing... but there's always something in it... sometimes... your parents wanted you to know something, realise something... your friends... sometimes they want you to notice what you've been not knowing for ages... argue, seems like something bad from the physical, but having lesson behind every arguement...

smile - fake smile? real slime? happy smile? awkward smile? even a simple smile can make different changes and different thoughts... smile, can make your mood better, but it can also help you to get over something...

i dunno what else to write... there's just so much things i learnt and i wish everyone would learn the same thing too... but, it's just too much... AND i'm not being positive all the time, just that i'm functioning my brain all the time... sometimes i make mistakes too, because no one is perfect right?? although i've learnt so much.. but i haven learn all... gambateh to myself, and gambateh to everyone... hope you guys can make your own life a better life to live with... remember, good or bad, all start from ourself... surrounding just something to affect our decisions...

(P) for Positive and (N) for negative

Thinkings

(P) i'm glad that i still have money to spend
(N) why other ppl so rich?? what also can buy, why i cannot buy ??

(P) oh, i got handphone... not bad... can call can sms
(N) why their phone so nice? my one so cacat de... no colour what also dun hav

(P) oh? i'm actually working... got income o =P
(N) everyday do same thing, salary so low... what the heck !

(P) i have a meal to eat, so grateful
(N) these again ?!?! can we eat something nicer??

(P) i have friends to hang out
(N) everytime go out with them, so sian la... somemore dun care bout me

(P) i'm playing computer... got connection somemore =)
(N) why ppl got laptop? and i'm staying at home with my computer ??

everything got their positive and negative sides, it depends on how you wanna think bout it and how you wanna live with it.... it's hard to stay positive all the time cause there's way too MUCH temptations around us... attractions... made our "wanting feeling" even stronger... i dunno la... i'm so two-sided now.... P + N = pure neutral... sometimes positive, sometimes negative.. sob sob... hehe... lolz ?

i hate my life and i like my life.... i hate the way it is, but i like the way it's passing by... i hate what's going on, but i like it in some other way... life is just so mysterious... happy sad.... going up and down... and.... you won't know what's going to happen next... always expect the unexpected... =P

i'm so sad....

suddenly i'm feeling so sad... thinking of what the others said... and i notice something... there's actually nothing bout me in others' life?? what i always hear is eh, you look like who who, you sounds like who who... is there anything belongs to me?? i've been following what other ppl do, saying what other ppl say... is there anything come out from me? i feel like... i'm like a puppet, a doll... i'm so fake and so not real...

ahh... what a (<{}{":(^%%$(_<)(>_)$$^&%@#)(@*#>)@$&%@$& night

Because i love you

I got your letter from postman just the other day
So I decided to write you this song
Just to let you know
Exactly the way i feel
To let you know my love is for real

Because I love you
I'll do anything
I'll give you my heart, my everything
Because I love you
I´ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

If you should feel that I don´t really care
And that you're starting to loose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And that I'll always be around

Because I love you
My heart is an open door
Girl, won't you please come on in
Because I love you
I´ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

If you should feel that I don´t really care
And that you're starting to loose ground
Just let me reassure you
That you can count on me
And I will always be around

Because I love you
My heart is an open door
Girl, won't you please come on in
Because I love you
I´ll be right by your side
To be your light, to be your guide

developing a good habit or self hypnotise ??

hmm, actually... i'm trying to help everyone to develop a good habit... but... it seems like it's a kind of self hypnosis also... haha....

basically... the point i wanna touch is... nowadays... many teenagers are going to the bad side?? >.< ok, you see... now, many teenagers, when they're doing any housework/house chores, they somehow think that they're not supposed to do those stuff, those stuff suppose to be done by maids or some other ppl... when they're doing it, they always question themselves, why am i doing this?? or tell themselves that they're not supposed to be there doing such thing or something like that... alright... this is a way i'm gonna teach you ppl...

try to develop a good stuff into yourself =) you might think i'm stupid, or just being too kind... but one day, you'll see the effect =)

example 1 : washing dishes
oh well, i guess this is the 2nd most hating part of all? haha... some ppl always think that washing dishes should be done by the maid or the last person who leaves the dining table? what i wanna say is... no matter you're number what of the person who leaves the table, you're responsibled to wash part of the dishes... if you're not washing all, at least wash your own tableware? and... instead of asking yourself why you should do that, you should tell yourself that you're part of the family and you're actually doing something to lessen the others' burden...

oh ya, and there's something i learnt from camp, or rather what i applied in camp... for ppl who went in ns, you should know that after every meal you have to wash your own cup/plate/bowl and etc... and ya, there's always some useless nuts who leave their stuff in the sink without washing them... this is the part you should think positively... i always wash those stuff, the thing running in my mind wasn't something like " if i washed these, then the jurulatih won't punish us " but something like " if i washed these, i'm actually helping some other ppl indirectly, maybe... someday there'll be someone helping me without me noticing it " and this is the part where majority thinks i'm stupid... haha... out of 16 person, only 3 person somehow amazed by me and start practising what i'm doing all the time... the rest think the 4 of us are nuts... lolz

example 2 : cleaning your own room
aww, this is the most angry thing ever... why on earth there's somebody don't want to clean their own room? if you're cleaning your own room from time to time, you're actually developing something good and for your own health too... without all the dust and germs in the air... and there's so many teenagers letting the maid/parents to clean their room? gosh... think with your brain la... ya, i know you're rich... what also got maid, but what if one day you suddenly bankrupt or somehow your house burnt down/got robbed or something bad happened?? when that happens, you'll have to clean up some mess, i believe many ppl still dunno how to rearrange a room... and ya, i just don't know how many/much kids/teenagers outside didn't realise how lucky they're because of what kind of family they're borned with...

example 3 : doing a small favor of your parents
ya ya ya, teenagers nowadays have their own world, their computers, their games and their girl/boy friends... but... sometimes you still have to know that your parents are sponsoring you or so call giving you pocket money " no offence to those who worked for themselves now " but i'm just taking the majority... do you feel annoyed when your dad ask you to take newspaper? or your mom ask you to take a knife for her to cut fruits? or just a cup of water/coffee ?? i bet sometimes you do feel annoying when your parents keep repeating your names in the air... but... try to think from their perspectives, they're just asking a small favor... can't you stop your computer games, smsing with your bf/gf, or the call you're making, or maybe the assignments you're rushing with?? imagine one day, WHAT IF they're gone... who else left for you to complete their favor?? respect and help them while you can =)

ahh, dunno why... these few days... really angry with what the majority teenagers are... so thoughtless... haiz... and i'm sad that i'm half of those? i mean i'm part of those but not fully someone who is useless... lolz...

no matter what you're doing for the others, you're actually developing something good... never question yourself with "why am i doing this/why should i do this" but tell yourself that you're helping the others by just doing a small favor... even washing a mountain of plates won't take you more than 2 hours... or cleaning the house... the max will take is half of a day... which you can do it during weekends or your holiday... ya ya .. maybe you're thinking... " i studied like mad, so hard for me to get holiday, i should be outside with my friends hanging out instead of doing house chores/work at home " nah~ you have plenty of time when you finished your studies... trust me... the chances of doing house chores are lesser than hanging out with your friends =)

oops, it's kinda a long post here... i guess i shall stop my anger and stop blogging by now... haha... enjoy and wait for the next post =P

i think......

hmm, almost everyone say 3rd batch is the worst?? hehe... but i think it's the best... although like it wasted a year of your life... but, it gave you a unforgetable experience/memory for the rest of your life... for 1st batch and 2nd batch, the amount of trainees still quite a lot... as for 3rd batches, many of them already start studying... that's why the number of trainees is lesser compare to 1st and 2nd...

advantage of 3rd batch
- you get to try almost everything?? because 1st and 2nd have many trainees and they have to finish everything according to the schedule, so i guess many of you dun get to play something in your camp right?? and because of h1n1, i know... many activities canceled, but... you're still enjoying in your camp right?? without really worrying bout h1n1
- you know almost everyone in camp?? where you can make friends easily...
- actually a lot, but so far i can think of this 2 only... hmm...

overall it's super enjoying la.. hehe !!

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三个月，一眨眼就过了~

在这三个月里，学会了许多东西，对感情事也有新一面的看法。 学会了紧握在手中，也学会了放开~ 学会了如何去处理自己的情绪~ 不仅如此，在营里，也认识了一班朋友。 每一位都有他们自己的特色。 每一天都过得好精彩~ 真的有种不想回家的感觉， 哈哈~

太久没用中文了， 真的不懂该如何去表达自己的感受~

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