if I can go back to the past,
I would choose not to know you at all.
it’s not that I regret
it’s because I can’t face
the fact that I’m without you.
from now on,
our happiness is no longer
relevant to each other.
the word “love” is actually
something so far from me until I couldn’t reach.
thinking of you quietly,
putting on some soft and smooth music.
your shadow is dim,
your face is blur,
but those won’t affect my emotions while I’m thinking of you.
I’m not missing you much,
just that when I’m happy I’ll thought of you,
you’re the first person that I wanted to share my happiness with.
I’m not missing you much
just that when I’m sad I’ll thought of you
you’re the first person that I wanted to express my sadness.
I’m not missing you much,
just that when I’m listening to songs I’ll thought of you from nowhere
there’s no reason why
it’s just that the lyrics are similar to you and me.
I’m not missing you much,
just that when I’m waking up in the morning I’ll thought of you from nowhere
there’s no reason why
it’s just that the person who appeared in my dream looked like you.
I’m not missing you much,
just that when I’m reading I’ll thought of you from nowhere
there’s no reason why
it’s just that the book’s main characters are similar to you and me.
I really din miss you so much
I only thought of you when I’m walking into some junctions
I only thought of you when I’m half way watching movie
I only thought of you when I’m half way listening songs
I really din miss you so much,
I only thought of you when I don’t want to think of you
This is good
I’m not thinking bout you
I just thought of you until my eyes are watery.
missing you,
but I’m afraid to let you know
that’s why dare not and won’t bother you.
I’m only keeping your smses in my phone,
bringing them out and read them again when I miss you
reading them slowly and feel it with details
after that, I will smile but sad at the same time.
I’m only keeping your favourite songs
never wanted to delete them
because those few “normal’ songs
I can play them again when I miss you
reminding me bout the past.
I’m only waiting for your sms at this quiet and silence night
when it arrives, there’s a kind of excitement in the heart
but I only reply with normal greetings without those excitement
funny jokes, funny arguments
if it don’t arrive,
it somehow brought disappointment
then I’ll sleep with a half dreaming half conscious mood.
the days without you,
I can only work hard to keep update with you
acting like there’s nothing
but after that I’m listening to what they said bout you
and carve those things bout you into my mind
I’m always loving you more than you can imagine
but I just can’t tell you.
lifting up my head to see the clouds of this city
breathing the air in this city
can also make me thought of you.
thinking that those clouds and air will move to your side
even if so
my heart is still warmly….
this moment,
I’m thinking of you
but only thinking of you
and not bothering you
miss you, but not disturbing/bothering you
it’s because I really love you.