emo will bring negative aura??

hmm, i was walking around dj today... i saw this 2 sentences...
女人的幸福是由自己的嘴巴来的，
男人的幸福是由自己的行动来的。

i duno how to explain but i found it's meaningful la... haha

after that i flip through a few books, i saw another 2 sentences
- love is a failure.
- love will be a failure when there's loneliness.

hmm, what happened today?? everything is like pulling me down... from standing to sitting to lying on the floor >.<>.<

我是水，你是鱼。虽然我看不到你哭，但是我感觉到。因为你是在我的心里的。

三个人还是一个人？？

我们的生命里都在寻找三个人，
第一个，是你最爱的人；
第二个，是最爱你的人；
第三个，是和你共度一生的人。

最悲哀的是，这三个人往往不会是同一个人，因为这三个人会在你生命里不同的阶段出现，首先你会遇到你最爱的人，明白了所谓的爱，你就会遇到最爱你的人，然后你体会到真真的爱后，你了解了你自己所需要的人后，你就会遇见和你共度一生的人。

为什么这三个不会是同一个呢？因为在真实生活里，当你发现了你最爱的人，往往他都不会是最爱你的人。而最爱你的人，你往往都不会看上他。然后，和你共度一生的人，通常不会是你最爱的人或最爱你的人。他只是在最适当的时候出现了。

我真的很希望，我可以把你成为同一个人。

情

我终于明白了，了解了，一段情是不能勉强的，无论是爱情，友情，同情，心情。 无论你多么的努力，是你的就是你的； 不是你的就不是你的。

友情，是人的选择，当你知道一个人不喜欢和你做朋友时，就不应该勉强了。 很多事情是不能看表面的，所以也不应该时常追究真相。当你知道真相时， 这种感觉真得不好受。就像今天的我，发现了一件我不该发现的东西，我根本就没有去追究或寻找，它就这样出现了。虽然我的想法不一定对，但是也让我领悟了一件事。我一直都告诉自己，我的想法是错的。你（阅读者）觉得我应该去问个明白吗？ 不问的话我又很烦恼，问了又怕我们（我和我的朋友）之间的感情会变淡。真的很烦！

爱情，不用说也知道是不能勉强的。爱情是最神奇美妙的，一股无法形容的感觉就这样出现在你的心里。爱情也是最多东西烦恼的，因为人类的疑心，好奇心实在太强了，而信心又不足够。像我一个普通的学生，不应该想这么多啦！！！ 真的很烦！！！

同情，根本就是来自心里的，根本勉强不了，一个人有没有同情心都是由他自己决定的。烦！烦！烦！

心情，自己的心情由自己控制，一个人要开心就开心，伤心就伤心，勉强不了，你可以改变一个人的心情，但是你勉强不了的！！ 一个人不开心，你不可能逼他笑，你只能逗她笑。自己的心情都不好了~~~ 烦！！

another day with another promise ?

hmm, just finish watching sky high, i guess this show is 2 years ago d?? haha, but i just got the chance to watch it today after so long.. cause today i finally found the website to get it ... =)

promise promise promise....

hmmm, just dun forget your promise la... it hurts a lot ~ if you're someone who meant a lot to her/him... just make sure you'll do what you've promised la.... =)

a little reminder to myself

the Third Day

today is the third day sleeping in pain.... how i wish that i never hurt by myself? injured?? what was i thinking at that moment?? everything happens in less than 3 seconds... it's so hurt... i never knew i could hurt like this... and everyday life goes on like normal.... after that happened, i really wish the time is reversible... i dun wan it to end like this... why i made that decision at the very beginning?? i just dun wish to see my mistake again... haiz.... i should've let go it earlier.... it's so hurt now... the wound is still there... it won't just recover like that in just a few days... haiz...

regreted ~

One word and one feeling

today ~ i heard that word quite a few times... when i heard that word, i was thinking lots of things, i really duno how much it affects me... but i always say that to people around me, sometimes i feel guilty...haha... that word is PROMISE.

today,
my perdagangan teacher promised us to bring us go genting if we ALL passed our perdagangan in SPM... stay over 1 night somemore.... haha....i think it could be the motivation to study perdagangan? heh... really wish can hang out with the classmates more...
another teacher of mine, which is my history teacher, she promised us to train us up in our history.... giving us exercises everyday =) which i really hope my history can improve after all this kind of exercises...

after listening to the teachers, i guess i've turned rude?? seriously, not to say blame friends la, but it really affects a lot.... when a friend said a foul language, you dun mind it, end up everyone in the group keep saying foul language... haizz... environmental factor?? that produces variation?? saying foul language?? i guess it's discontinuous bah?? haha....lame~ now i know why a person can be changed so easily....it's all back to friends... luckily i still can control myself from smoking... really hate smokers....but somehow, i have a few close friends that smoke.... haizzz...

and promise?? i duno how many things i've promised.... hong kong disneyland?? taiwan?? a house?? a car?? i really wish i can cheer up everyone around me.... seeing them sad i really duno what to do, especially can see shiny eyes, watery eyes, the little tiny droplets are so hard to control.... just dun like to see ppl around me to cry huh? promising them is the only thing i can do when they're down, and try to do it. but there's someone.... outside there.... i promise anything just to make the world a better place =P

to : those i concern
- must cheer up k?? dun always think of sad things la, dun affect by me =P
- i will try my best to fulfill your wish of my promise la... =)

been thinking lately, is all the gemini playboy?? i've seen many horoscope articles and emails... highest chance of divorce is gemini, most playboy also gemini.... myself, a gemini, suddenly felt i'm so playboy?? but i'm always think that's how making girls laugh... i really duno what else i can do to make them happy... seeing them in such a sad condition really make me feel bad... i just hope they won't fall in me la... =) i'm not a really good guy, maybe just a close friend?? but for now, i guess i'm not a playboy... eheh, she's all over the place... my mind, my imagination world, my dreams, my thoughts, everywhere... really wish i can see her soon =)

It's a new me =)

today... what should happens already happened. what it shouldn't happens, happened also... lolz... but the thing is.... i'm happy with the result tonight =)

i'm gonna change myself....this time is a serious time and no more playing.... during serious time.... haha.... i'm sorry to disappoint those who ADVISED me today in class.... but i'll PROMISE you not to do that again anymore.... i've bolded my PROMISE.....so i'll do it...haha

sorry again...

I'm looking at my past

today, i'm looking backwards... browsing through all my older posts...

i noticed i'm really emo in the old days.... days passed by and times go on.... i think it's a better place to be in now... i can have better view now... it's time to pack up all the feelings and start studying... but 20th October is a special day.... it's a day that's full of feelings... after this 20th October.... i'm gonna blast myself to study at the maximum...

everything has changed~
after 20th of October... i'll let everything be
let it be on their own....

20th October...

hope it's not a bad day la =P

but somehow there's something somewhere giving me a kind of negative aura that tells me it's not going to be a good day.... haiz.... life huh ?

Once in a lifetime ~

once in a lifetime means there's no second chance...
no matter where we're going, it'll starts from where we are...
there's more to life when we listen to our hearts
we're not gonna lose because we get to choose...
that's how it's gonna be
gonna run while we're young.. and keep the faith...

friends ~

just like the bolded line... no matter how much you know that person, it'll end up a stranger to you when something happens... but if you seriously listen to your heart... you're not gonna lose that friend because you get to choose... think of why she/he do that, think of what happened, eventhough if she/he tells you that, "i do it for the money", think of why she/he needs the money?? if it's just for more money or extra income, better delete this person from your life... we have brain and we can think... not just because of words, it'll change everything and views or rather impressions... chances are always given for the 1st time, and once in a lifetime means there's only one chance... and that chance, we should grab it while we can...

immaturity ~

things are not as simple as what you see or what you think... dun be too pure and ask questions like an idiot (sorry for the bads)... like i said, human have brains~ they'll think of lots of thing when it comes to curiousity and it'll leads to immaturity... life's complicated and just like a maze... you can never expect or predict what's gonna happen next... surprises... because of a person's thinking... you won't know what's gonna happen next... everyone's maturity levels are different... dun expect everyone to think the same of yours.... what you think it might be right but for some ppl it can be wrong...

Equations of my conclusion :
1) mature + pure = troubles
2) mature + mature = arguements
3) pure + pure = dream world / full of forgiveness
4) pure + mature = things are well kept

*note : it's not maths equations*
+ means talk to, = means will result in

things happen ~ we can never control ~ depend on how people take it ~ that's why it'll ends up in different ways ~ everything happens for a reason... never blame never complain ~

a word " Promise "

Promise ~

it's a strong word to almost every girl... when you promised them something, make sure you'll do it, because they'll remember it forever...it's some kind of magical word... when you cannot do something, please dun say : i promise you i'll do it, i'll make it or something... dun ever give hope when you know you can't... yar, it's true that you want your love one to know how much you care for her, love her, but if you really cannot do something that she wants you to do, dun promise it... it's something really mean a lot to them.... now i only know how much that " Promise " word affect them... some ppl(not my love one) just keep reminding of what i promised... but most of the promises i made, i really did it... gladness ~

tagged by Stephk
1.What is the relationship of you and her?
- Friends
2. Your 5 impressions towards her?
- Laughter
- Fun girl
- Skinny
- Cool ~
- Sweet
3. The most memorable things she has done for you.
- tag me... haha
4. The most memorable things she have said to you?
- boon khit.... why so quiet??
5. If she becomes your lover, you will...
- try to make myself taller?? haha
6. If she becomes your enemy, you will...
- impossible!! i seldom have enemies (i guess)
7. If she becomes your lover, she has to improve on...
- maybe a lil at the body weight?? too skinny
8. If she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
- no way mann....the word "enemy" is not exist in my dictionary !!
9. The most desirable thing to do on her is?
- hmm...maybe just a lil hug will do.... =)
10. The overall impression of her is...
- loud voice...which make the days noise... not too quiet =P
11. How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
- quiet? boring? maths freak? not leng zai? haha....i think i have no goods
12. The character of you for yourself is?
- being a maths maniac / maths freak >.<
13. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
- lazy bum bum
14. The most ideal person that you wanna be is?
- an elder version of myself... =P
15. For the people who care about and likes you, say something about them.
- you know~ i remember everyone in my life and i wanted to let you guys know... each and everyone of you is special in my life and made a difference in my life~ thanks for caring me, really appreciate it

16. 10 frens to tag
(i) Andrea Chang (vi) Tiffany Chang
(ii) Jason Lim (vii) Chun Ming
(iii) Lee Ping (viii) Sook Teng
(iv) Cheow Yuen (ix) Cheau Wei
(v) Rajsingam (x) Lourene

17. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with? (Jason Lim)
- no one....available, single, virgin still~ haha
18. Is no. 3 a male or a female? (Lee Ping)
- female
19. If no. 7 and no. 10 were together, would it be a good thing?(CM and Lourene)
- should be... =)
20. How about no. 5 and no. 8? (Rajasingam and Sook Teng)
- hmm, not sure bout their taste... haha
21. What is no. 1 studying about?(Andrea)
- science and history
22. Is no. 4 single?(Cheow Yuen)
- i think... most probably yes... =)
23. Say something about no. 6 (Tiffany)
- study hard and all the best for your PMR =)

is it a hint ??

i had my weirdest but sweetest dreams yesterday.... it's something connected with what happened yesterday and somehow relate to my dream... she appeared 3 times....for quite a long time.... aha hope to have better dreams =P

9 more days ~

20th of October...

a special day ~

only 1 person know..... because i asked her for some ideas... haha

Gossip Guys ~

woohoo, today finally started to study... actually tuesday started but today also studied la...heh tuesday i studied til 2am you know ?!?!? i studied 7 pages of history for 2 hours !! really everything into my mind d...hehe

today went Centerpoint Mc D.... studied 2 hours?? i can almost master the science main titles d.... like example 3.6 Variation, 4.4 Periodic Table and etc....or like on the left or right page....top/middle/bottom of that page.... i also know d....muahahahhaz and my friend ask me bout Akta Kampung Ulu Burma or something.... i remember it's on the right page of text book, top of the page, first paragraph....end up found it at page 11 !! really right page and top part le...i feel so happy and proud....but i duno the content...haha....so must work very hard for it already =) after studies for 2 hours.... it's GOSSIP TIME ~ ~ ~ haha, talked a lot today.... bout people around and humans....haha

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also celebrated 2 friends' birthday in school....it was so fun~ creams on the faces~ chocolates on shirts.... haha

gonna push myself to the super limit of science and history....the 2 subject i wish to score the most !!

E²

E² = Eagle Eye ....

hmm, watched it today, it's kinda nice i suppose? haha, i think it's cool but because it's all bout running?? so i find that it's kinda boring?? eheh....that's just my opinion, but i think you guys should watch it, it's a nice movie. hehe go watch it, i dun wanna be a spoiler =P

today in the cinema, i felt kinda weird, like dun like to go cinema anymore... sitting there for 2 hours + + i duno why la, maybe the last 2 times i went with her...that's why feel weird this time?? and the last time... before this Eagle Eye.... got some bad memories in the cinema... those who're close to me they should know what happened in the cinema?? not to say i wan her to be there everytime i go cinema la, but really duno what happened to me, we're humans right?? dun tell me you always know why you're happy or sad, sometimes it just happen like this and there's no reason why~ haiz... cinema... supposingly a place that gives us sweet memories?? duno la, really dun like it... sorry to disappoint those who teman'ed me today... ahah, it's kinda ehem..... boring.... .>.<

improvement of the day ~
- i din point the cinema screen so often already !! i actually counted....today 3 times only, previous movie 16 times !!!
- i din talk much today, only opened my mouth 4 times in the cinema after movie starts, before this more than 10 times !!!
- i smiled to as many ppl i can
- spent the least for 1 day ?? breakfast + lunch + dinner + movie ticket + movie drinks + movie food + taxi to 1u + daytona + pool = only RM37

ok la, not a long post, my mind is out of words already, just dun like to think bout anything anymore at this moment. ahah hope this short post can let you feel how i felt. =)

i'm so out of my mind !!!

love~

something that can hardly last...
you feels great and happy and almost heavenly when you have it or feel it
you feels superbly suckz, depress or sad or like some hell when you lost it
something that can never be controlled.

there's always confusion and illusion in love.
you always doubt when you think bout something.
you always ask when you saw something.
there's always questions and curiosity.

love~
it can be the greatest feeling, the strongest feeling; heavenly
but love~
it can also be the saddest feeling, the worst feeling.

love comes like wind and goes like wind.
natural and unexpected.
you can feel the love just like how you felt the wind.
but you can never grab it.

i duno why i keep thinking bout love this few days... holiday really really boring... haizzz keep thinking thinking and thinking but still no answer.